It took me over two hours to fall asleep last night, but during the two hours there might be some shallow dreaming going on.
Since the filtered water I got yesterday tasted weird, I boiled the filtered water this morning, and boiling does help purify the water! Now the water is more drinkable. Lisa bought me distilled water from Walgreen a few days ago, and I thought the water tasted like plastic. But Lisa said it tasted fine. I never had any problems with filtered water either, but now I can recognize the unpleasant tastes in filtered water. So my taste bud has indeed become more sensitive.
These days I have always had a little bit hard time breathing when I got up in the morning. Usually the breathing went back to normal in a while.
Lisa said that my facial skin worsened today, or more precisely, went back to what it usually looked like. It’s weird that Dozie could tell that my face cleared up yesterday and Lisa could tell that my skin got worse today, but I simply couldn’t tell any difference.
I think the rashes on my arms and hands got a little bit better today because they looked less prominent/red. But the thigh area close to my butt has become itchier. I do like detox a lot, but now school will start in two days, I really hope these detox symptoms can go away soon. I really want to end the fast and recover soon so that I can function well in school.
My back felt a little uncomfortable these days.
I did laundry today and it surprisingly made me tired. While walking upstairs, I felt that my legs didn’t have strength. I thought, maybe it’s time for me to break the fast, because the school is about to start.
What about my rashes then? If the spring break would continue for a few more days, I would totally continue the fast to fast the rashes away and complete this detox, but I think at this point my energy is more important. After I break the fast and during the transition period, I will have an extremely healthy diet, so my body will keep on detoxing, although at a lower rate. I’m totally ok with taking more time to get rid of the rashes.
At 6:15pm, I broke the water fast by drinking a little bit Naked Juice coconut water mixed with half cup of water. Although the coconut water was diluted, it tasted so fresh and pleasant. I kept on drinking, without being aware that I actually drank a little bit too much. Even after an hour and a half, my stomach still felt full. Wow…
Now is the time to summarize. I began the water fast after dinner on Friday, March 18 (which I counted as day 0), and ended the fast on Saturday, March 26 at 6:15pm. So it’s an 8 day water fast. Before, I have only done 2 one-day “forced” fast. By “forced” I mean I felt compelled to fast, because my stomach was about to burst due to overeating. In those 2 one-day fasts, I had plenty of food reserve to use, so probably they were just half-day fasts. Therefore, I’m a little bit amazed that I could successfully accomplish this 8 day water fast considering how little fasting experience I've had.
The 8-day water fast has been a fantastic experience. Throughout these 8 days, although I was physically weaker and weaker, I have always been mentally alert. I had a lot of readings as well as other stuff done. I never felt bored. I went outside three times. Except the vomiting in the morning of the second day, I have never suffered. Another major symptom is the rashes. One other annoying thing was that the bones around my hip area hurt, especially when I slept. Probably it was because I had become thinner. Other than that, everything went quite smoothly. I didn’t accomplish anything spiritually, because I somehow didn’t feel like reading about meditation after starting two meditation books. I will keep on pursuing meditation tho. I slept a lot and took afternoon naps most of the days. I slept roughly 8.7 hours per day, more than after vegan and before the fast. People usually say that you sleep less while fasting, so I guess my body was working extra hard to release toxins and thus I needed more sleep. I also dreamed much more than before, so I guess my sleep were not really normal sleeps. In the first three days I drank more than 2 liters of water, but later my need for water diminished, although today I drank a lot of water again. In terms of weight, I lost a total of 5.2 kg or 11.5 pounds. My mense came on the 6th day of the fast, 4 days earlier than I expected, 24 days after my previous cycle. My bloods were no longer red fluid, but dark brown clots. The amount was smaller than usual, but clots are supposed to have a smaller volume than liquids, right? Interestingly, after breaking the fast, my mense blood became red liquid again, although there were still dark clots. An hour after breaking the fast, I felt a little tired. 7:15pm is a weird time to feel tired.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
8th day of water fast, cloudy
It took me over two hours to fall asleep last night, but during the two hours there might be some shallow dreaming going on.
Since the filtered water I got yesterday tasted weird, I boiled the filtered water this morning, and boiling does help purify the water! Now the water is more drinkable. Lisa bought me distilled water from Walgreen a few days ago, and I thought the water tasted like plastic. But Lisa said it tasted fine. I never had any problems with filtered water, but now I can recognize the unpleasant tastes in filtered water. So my taste bud is indeed more sensitive now. A useful conclusion is that boiling does help purify the water.
It’s weird that these days I have always had a little bit hard time breathing when I went up in the morning. Usually the breathing went back to normal after water.
Lisa said that my facial skin worsened today, or more precisely, went back to what it usually looked like. It’s weird that Dozie could tell that my face cleared up yesterday and Lisa could tell that my skin got worse today, but I simply couldn’t tell any difference.
I think the rashes on my arms and hands got a little bit better today because they looked less prominent/red. But the thigh area close to my butt has become itchier. I do like detox a lot, but now school will start in two days, I really hope these detox symptoms can go away soon. I really want to end the fast and recover soon so that I can function well in school.
My back felt a little uncomfortable these days.
I did laundry today and it surprisingly made me tired. While walking upstairs, I sometimes felt that my legs didn’t have strength. I thought, maybe it’s time for me to break the fast, because the school will start in two days.
What about my rashes then? If the spring break would continue for a few more days, I would totally continue the fast to fast the rashes away and complete this detox, but I think at this point my energy is more important. After I break the fast and during the transition period, I will have an extremely healthy diet, so my body will keep on detoxing, although at a lower rate. I’m fine with that. I’m ok with taking more time to get rid of the rashes.
At 6:15pm, I broke the water fast by drinking a little bit Naked Juice coconut water mixed with half cup of water. Although the coconut water was diluted, it tasted so fresh and pleasant. I kept on drinking, without being aware that I actually drank a little bit too much. Even after an hour and a half, my stomach still felt full. Wow…
Now is the time to summarize. I began the fast after dinner on Friday, March 18 (which I counted as day 0), and ended the fast on Saturday, March 26 at 6:15pm. So it’s an 8 day water fast. Before, I have only done 2 one-day “forced” fast. By “forced” I mean I felt compelled to fast, because my stomach was about to burst due to overating. In those 2 one-day fasts, I had plenty of food reserve to use during the fast. Probably they were just half-day fasts. Therefore, I’m a little bit amazed that I could successfully accomplish this 8 day water fast considering how little fasting experience I had.
The 8-day water fast has been a fantastic experience. Throughout these 8 days, although I was physically weaker and weaker, I have always been extremely mentally alert. I had a lot of readings and other things done. I never felt bored. I went outside three times. Except the vomiting in the morning of the second day, I have never suffered. Another major symptom is the rashes. Other than that, everything went quite smoothly. I didn’t accomplish anything spiritually, because I somehow didn’t feel like reading about meditation after starting two meditation books. I will keep on pursuing meditation tho. I slept a lot and took afternoon naps most of the days. I slept roughly 8.7 hours per day, more than after vegan and before the fast. People usually say that you sleep less while fasting. I guess my body was working really hard to release toxins, so it required more sleep. I also dreamed much more than before, so I guess my sleep are not really normal sleeps. In the first three days I drank more than 2 liters of water, but later my need for water diminished, although today I drank a lot of water. In terms of weight, I lost a total of 5.2 kg or 11.5 pounds. My mense came on the 6th day of the fast, 4 days earlier than I expected, 24 days after my previous cycle. My bloods were no longer red fluid, but dark brown clots. The amount is smaller than usual, but clots are supposed to have a smaller volume than liquids, right? Interestingly, after breaking the fast, my mense blood became red liquid again, although there were still dark clots. An hour after breaking the fast, I felt a little tired. 7:15pm is a weird time to feel tired.
Since the filtered water I got yesterday tasted weird, I boiled the filtered water this morning, and boiling does help purify the water! Now the water is more drinkable. Lisa bought me distilled water from Walgreen a few days ago, and I thought the water tasted like plastic. But Lisa said it tasted fine. I never had any problems with filtered water, but now I can recognize the unpleasant tastes in filtered water. So my taste bud is indeed more sensitive now. A useful conclusion is that boiling does help purify the water.
It’s weird that these days I have always had a little bit hard time breathing when I went up in the morning. Usually the breathing went back to normal after water.
Lisa said that my facial skin worsened today, or more precisely, went back to what it usually looked like. It’s weird that Dozie could tell that my face cleared up yesterday and Lisa could tell that my skin got worse today, but I simply couldn’t tell any difference.
I think the rashes on my arms and hands got a little bit better today because they looked less prominent/red. But the thigh area close to my butt has become itchier. I do like detox a lot, but now school will start in two days, I really hope these detox symptoms can go away soon. I really want to end the fast and recover soon so that I can function well in school.
My back felt a little uncomfortable these days.
I did laundry today and it surprisingly made me tired. While walking upstairs, I sometimes felt that my legs didn’t have strength. I thought, maybe it’s time for me to break the fast, because the school will start in two days.
What about my rashes then? If the spring break would continue for a few more days, I would totally continue the fast to fast the rashes away and complete this detox, but I think at this point my energy is more important. After I break the fast and during the transition period, I will have an extremely healthy diet, so my body will keep on detoxing, although at a lower rate. I’m fine with that. I’m ok with taking more time to get rid of the rashes.
At 6:15pm, I broke the water fast by drinking a little bit Naked Juice coconut water mixed with half cup of water. Although the coconut water was diluted, it tasted so fresh and pleasant. I kept on drinking, without being aware that I actually drank a little bit too much. Even after an hour and a half, my stomach still felt full. Wow…
Now is the time to summarize. I began the fast after dinner on Friday, March 18 (which I counted as day 0), and ended the fast on Saturday, March 26 at 6:15pm. So it’s an 8 day water fast. Before, I have only done 2 one-day “forced” fast. By “forced” I mean I felt compelled to fast, because my stomach was about to burst due to overating. In those 2 one-day fasts, I had plenty of food reserve to use during the fast. Probably they were just half-day fasts. Therefore, I’m a little bit amazed that I could successfully accomplish this 8 day water fast considering how little fasting experience I had.
The 8-day water fast has been a fantastic experience. Throughout these 8 days, although I was physically weaker and weaker, I have always been extremely mentally alert. I had a lot of readings and other things done. I never felt bored. I went outside three times. Except the vomiting in the morning of the second day, I have never suffered. Another major symptom is the rashes. Other than that, everything went quite smoothly. I didn’t accomplish anything spiritually, because I somehow didn’t feel like reading about meditation after starting two meditation books. I will keep on pursuing meditation tho. I slept a lot and took afternoon naps most of the days. I slept roughly 8.7 hours per day, more than after vegan and before the fast. People usually say that you sleep less while fasting. I guess my body was working really hard to release toxins, so it required more sleep. I also dreamed much more than before, so I guess my sleep are not really normal sleeps. In the first three days I drank more than 2 liters of water, but later my need for water diminished, although today I drank a lot of water. In terms of weight, I lost a total of 5.2 kg or 11.5 pounds. My mense came on the 6th day of the fast, 4 days earlier than I expected, 24 days after my previous cycle. My bloods were no longer red fluid, but dark brown clots. The amount is smaller than usual, but clots are supposed to have a smaller volume than liquids, right? Interestingly, after breaking the fast, my mense blood became red liquid again, although there were still dark clots. An hour after breaking the fast, I felt a little tired. 7:15pm is a weird time to feel tired.
Friday, March 25, 2011
7th day of water fast, rainy
A lot of vivid detailed dreams.
Mense blood dark brown clots.
Blood vessels in eyes disappeared.
Rashes on arms a little ichy.
Very little blood while brushing teeth.
Breathe much better. If the breathe odor yesterday was10, then it’s 2.5 today. I could tell it improved even before Dozie and Lisa smelling it, because previous days I often liked to rinse my mouth before drinking water, but today I don’t feel it’s necessary anymore. I like my saliva better today. That my breathe beginning to clear up could be an indicator that I could probably stop the fast soon. I’ve decided that I would stop the fast when my breathe totally clears up and my rashes are gone, or after completing 10 days of water fast, whichever comes first.
Dozie said that my acne looked better now. I always think it’s not bad tho.
I biked to Huang to get 5 1-liter bottles of filtered water. They were really heavy. I was a little bit exhausted after I went back to room (considering the water and all the stairs and little hills), so I took a nap for over three hours. I totally recovered after the nap.
Maybe it’s because I have become thinner now, my bones began to “stick out”, especially those in my hip and knee area, so sometimes it’s uncomfortable during sleep. It worsens as I become thinner.
Mense blood dark brown clots.
Blood vessels in eyes disappeared.
Rashes on arms a little ichy.
Very little blood while brushing teeth.
Breathe much better. If the breathe odor yesterday was10, then it’s 2.5 today. I could tell it improved even before Dozie and Lisa smelling it, because previous days I often liked to rinse my mouth before drinking water, but today I don’t feel it’s necessary anymore. I like my saliva better today. That my breathe beginning to clear up could be an indicator that I could probably stop the fast soon. I’ve decided that I would stop the fast when my breathe totally clears up and my rashes are gone, or after completing 10 days of water fast, whichever comes first.
Dozie said that my acne looked better now. I always think it’s not bad tho.
I biked to Huang to get 5 1-liter bottles of filtered water. They were really heavy. I was a little bit exhausted after I went back to room (considering the water and all the stairs and little hills), so I took a nap for over three hours. I totally recovered after the nap.
Maybe it’s because I have become thinner now, my bones began to “stick out”, especially those in my hip and knee area, so sometimes it’s uncomfortable during sleep. It worsens as I become thinner.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
6th day of water fast, rainy
Slept from 10:50pm to roughly 8:20am, after probably 6am kept on shallow dreaming. Also dreamed during real sleep.
Yesterday had some pain on the left of my neck at night. Probably because I read too much. Pain disappeared today.
Yesterday discovered rashes on the inner side of both of my lower arms and back of my hands and they still exist today. Tonight some rashes even on calf.
Yesterday some blood vessels showed up in my right eye, but they disappeared this morning. However, my right eye did feel a little weird when I woke up this morning.
Had a little bit hard time breathing when I was brushing my teeth, washing my face etc in the morning.
In previous two days there was blood when I was brushing my teeth, today it got better, although there still was a little blood.
I found some light orange/red-ish residuals in my first urine in my morning, while my saliva is not that orange anymore.
When I was very close to Lisa this morning, she said my breath smelled, but I couldn’t smell it at all! She said I didn’t have body odor. Probably my breath smelled in previous days too, just that I was not that close to Lisa.
Got a pimple on the chin.
Walked in the rain for about half an hour.
First day of period, roughly 4 days earlier than I expected. Very little blood.
Before bed, blood vessels showed up in right eye again.
A good amount of blood while brushing my teeth.
Today I decided to eat seafood 2-3 times a week on top of my vegan diet, because the major elements vegans lack are omega-3 fatty acid, vitamin B12, and vitamin D, while seafood is one of the best sources for all these three elements. I know I can take supplements, but it sounds so artificial to me. Humans are not designed to eat supplements or fortified foods. We are meant to eat natural whole foods. If the viability of a diet relies on supplement, then it doesn’t sound like a natural diet to me. I like vegan diet a lot, and I feel a little sad that I won’t be a vegan now, but I don’t want to confine my mind. I will keep on experimenting and doing research to figure out a diet that best fits my health and ideology.
Yesterday had some pain on the left of my neck at night. Probably because I read too much. Pain disappeared today.
Yesterday discovered rashes on the inner side of both of my lower arms and back of my hands and they still exist today. Tonight some rashes even on calf.
Yesterday some blood vessels showed up in my right eye, but they disappeared this morning. However, my right eye did feel a little weird when I woke up this morning.
Had a little bit hard time breathing when I was brushing my teeth, washing my face etc in the morning.
In previous two days there was blood when I was brushing my teeth, today it got better, although there still was a little blood.
I found some light orange/red-ish residuals in my first urine in my morning, while my saliva is not that orange anymore.
When I was very close to Lisa this morning, she said my breath smelled, but I couldn’t smell it at all! She said I didn’t have body odor. Probably my breath smelled in previous days too, just that I was not that close to Lisa.
Got a pimple on the chin.
Walked in the rain for about half an hour.
First day of period, roughly 4 days earlier than I expected. Very little blood.
Before bed, blood vessels showed up in right eye again.
A good amount of blood while brushing my teeth.
Today I decided to eat seafood 2-3 times a week on top of my vegan diet, because the major elements vegans lack are omega-3 fatty acid, vitamin B12, and vitamin D, while seafood is one of the best sources for all these three elements. I know I can take supplements, but it sounds so artificial to me. Humans are not designed to eat supplements or fortified foods. We are meant to eat natural whole foods. If the viability of a diet relies on supplement, then it doesn’t sound like a natural diet to me. I like vegan diet a lot, and I feel a little sad that I won’t be a vegan now, but I don’t want to confine my mind. I will keep on experimenting and doing research to figure out a diet that best fits my health and ideology.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
5th day of water fast, rainy, sunny
A long dream in a Stanford setting, but the main building was modern, large and complex. Yuan, (fake) Daniel, Andrew, my MS&E 280 teacher etc. were in the dream. Again, vivid but can’t remember much.
First saliva spit in the morning orange-ish, had a little bit hard time breathing for a while after getting up.
Thought about all the delicious both meat and vegetable foods in the afternoon. Again, it was a pleasure, not craving. Conclusion: meat in China is much more tasty and cooked in more varieties than that in the US, while vegetables in the US are more delicious and cooked in more ways than those in China.
Took a nap from around 4 to 6:00pm, can’t remember having dreams.
Didn’t feel thirsty.
Urine still “bubbly”.
Voice only a little bit away from normal now.
Confused why I still feel hungry sometimes.
Confused why it’s still an extremely normal day.
First saliva spit in the morning orange-ish, had a little bit hard time breathing for a while after getting up.
Thought about all the delicious both meat and vegetable foods in the afternoon. Again, it was a pleasure, not craving. Conclusion: meat in China is much more tasty and cooked in more varieties than that in the US, while vegetables in the US are more delicious and cooked in more ways than those in China.
Took a nap from around 4 to 6:00pm, can’t remember having dreams.
Didn’t feel thirsty.
Urine still “bubbly”.
Voice only a little bit away from normal now.
Confused why I still feel hungry sometimes.
Confused why it’s still an extremely normal day.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
4th day of water fast, sunny
Spat out saliva before brushing my teeth in the morning, the saliva was orange-ish.
Got back my voice again, although it was still not normal.
At one point in the morning, felt like having bowel movement but there was none. I even farted!
Still hiccup the whole day. Not that frequently tho.
Biked outside to run errands. Liked the fresh air. Felt tired biking on my way back. First time to realize that I’m actually weaker now.
Not very tired when I went back to room, yellow/orange-ish saliva again, urine light yellow with lots of clustered tiny bubbles.
Didn’t take afternoon naps like previous days.
Some stomach pain in the afternoon as if I was hungry, but it didn’t last long.
Somehow didn’t feel like reading about meditation.
Didn’t feel thirsty and lips didn’t feel dry in the evening.
Didn’t feel tired the whole day except for the bike ride.
Got back my voice again, although it was still not normal.
At one point in the morning, felt like having bowel movement but there was none. I even farted!
Still hiccup the whole day. Not that frequently tho.
Biked outside to run errands. Liked the fresh air. Felt tired biking on my way back. First time to realize that I’m actually weaker now.
Not very tired when I went back to room, yellow/orange-ish saliva again, urine light yellow with lots of clustered tiny bubbles.
Didn’t take afternoon naps like previous days.
Some stomach pain in the afternoon as if I was hungry, but it didn’t last long.
Somehow didn’t feel like reading about meditation.
Didn’t feel thirsty and lips didn’t feel dry in the evening.
Didn’t feel tired the whole day except for the bike ride.
Monday, March 21, 2011
3rd day of water fast, rainy, cloudy, sunny
Last night I went to read on bed at 10:45pm. Because I took a 3.6-hour nap in the afternoon, I expected to sleep late, but I was a bit tired at 11:25pm so I went to sleep. Surprisingly I woke up at 4:55am in the morning, exactly the same time as when I first got up yesterday morning! I thought I couldn’t get back to sleep because 5.4 hours of night sleep + 3.6 hours of afternoon nap = 9 hours of sleep already. I stayed awake for a while, peed, and strangely went back to sleep again! Then I had a vivid and long dream about my 1st and 2nd grade best friend and her twin brother. Then came another surprise: I woke up at 6:55am, exactly the same time as when I officially got up last morning. What’s more incredible is that I slept 7.3 hours following a long afternoon nap. I felt terrific when I got out of the bed.
I built another insulator with cardboard and paper. I put the stainless steel water bottle in the bubble wrap and put it in the middle of the insulator at 7:30am. Unfortunately I drank all the water before two hours. Then I insulate the water again at 9:04am. Two hours later, the water was a little bit / not significantly warmer than that coming from my first insulator.
I began to have mild stomach pain at 9:35am and it lasted 5 minutes.
I kept my arm raised for 2 minutes just to provide a benchmark for Lisa to see if she had become weaker because she suffered from keeping her arm raised for long. My arm didn’t hurt much, but it consumed my energy. I even yawned and got a tiny, short headache afterward.
I had quite a few hiccups throughout out the day.
My lips got chapped today and I became thirsty more easily.
I lied on bed from 1:50pm, napped from probably 3:15 to 4:25pm. I had a vivid and long dream about movies, but I couldn’t remember clearly. I actually didn’t really need this afternoon nap, but it was a nice rest anyways.
I began to read about meditation after the nap.
In the afternoon my voice sounded different and in the evening I lost my voice / could only talk very quietly, although feeling wise my throat is completely normal / I can't notice anything wrong with my throat if I don’t talk.
A very strange thing that began to happen this afternoon and worsened in the evening was that I began to think about meat a lot. I haven't thought about meat much or really enjoyed the thinking of it ever since I became a vegan, but today I thought about a variety of meat like river shrimp, chicken soup, fried egg etc. and was thinking about how delicious they were. I also thought about fresh fruit like strawberries, but I thought about meat much more. At first I tried not to think about meat/food, because I was fasting, but later I thought it was ok because although I enjoyed thinking about meat and could imagine the exact delicious taste it had, I was not craving for it. It's just a very enjoyable experience to think about meat/food.
To help toxin release, I used body scrub in the shower and will use face scrub before bed.
Today is another normal day, besides losing my voice.
I built another insulator with cardboard and paper. I put the stainless steel water bottle in the bubble wrap and put it in the middle of the insulator at 7:30am. Unfortunately I drank all the water before two hours. Then I insulate the water again at 9:04am. Two hours later, the water was a little bit / not significantly warmer than that coming from my first insulator.
I began to have mild stomach pain at 9:35am and it lasted 5 minutes.
I kept my arm raised for 2 minutes just to provide a benchmark for Lisa to see if she had become weaker because she suffered from keeping her arm raised for long. My arm didn’t hurt much, but it consumed my energy. I even yawned and got a tiny, short headache afterward.
I had quite a few hiccups throughout out the day.
My lips got chapped today and I became thirsty more easily.
I lied on bed from 1:50pm, napped from probably 3:15 to 4:25pm. I had a vivid and long dream about movies, but I couldn’t remember clearly. I actually didn’t really need this afternoon nap, but it was a nice rest anyways.
I began to read about meditation after the nap.
In the afternoon my voice sounded different and in the evening I lost my voice / could only talk very quietly, although feeling wise my throat is completely normal / I can't notice anything wrong with my throat if I don’t talk.
A very strange thing that began to happen this afternoon and worsened in the evening was that I began to think about meat a lot. I haven't thought about meat much or really enjoyed the thinking of it ever since I became a vegan, but today I thought about a variety of meat like river shrimp, chicken soup, fried egg etc. and was thinking about how delicious they were. I also thought about fresh fruit like strawberries, but I thought about meat much more. At first I tried not to think about meat/food, because I was fasting, but later I thought it was ok because although I enjoyed thinking about meat and could imagine the exact delicious taste it had, I was not craving for it. It's just a very enjoyable experience to think about meat/food.
To help toxin release, I used body scrub in the shower and will use face scrub before bed.
Today is another normal day, besides losing my voice.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
2nd day of water fast, rainy, sunny, cloudy
I had a terrible yet rewarding experience early this morning. I woke up at around 3:15am. My stomach was complaining although it didn’t have pain. The “hunger” didn’t bother me on the first day, so why did it suddenly become bothersome on the second day? I stayed on bed trying to get back to sleep, but it was difficult. I probably managed to fall asleep, but I woke up again at 4:44am. This time I was still feeling bad: I was thirsty/dehydrated, my bedding was too warm/hot (probably because the pair of pants I was wearing were heavier and tighter than usual), and the room was a little stuffy (I thought it was cold last night, so we had the window closed, which we normally don’t do).
I didn’t feel that sleepy and remembered reading that you don’t need that much sleep during fasting. Most importantly, I really need some water, so I jumped out of the bed at around 4:50am (my bed was slightly elevated). The moment my feet landed on the ground, I instantly felt dizzy. I suddenly remembered that doctors supervising fasts instruct their patients not to jump out of the bed or suddenly stand up. When fasters feel dizzy, they should immediately sit or lie down. So I immediately went back to bed, which relieved the symptom. Then I stepped out of the bed carefully using the chair. I could finally stand still, although I still felt a little bit dizzy.
I weighted myself before doing anything else, because I thought this was the official getting-up. 51.6, 0.3kg lower than last night and 1kg lower than last morning. I thought I would lose more weight, but it was good that I didn’t lose weight quickly. I then went to the bathroom to warm my water, brush my teeth and wash my face. I looked pale in the mirror, especially my lips. I went back to the room. My hands were shaky while pouring water into the mug. I felt terrible so I sat down at my desk. I was weak and nauseous and it felt like I was having a fever (except my temperature was normal). I wanted to read, but I couldn’t. I wanted to vomit, so I had a plastic bad ready just in case. Every move was suffering. I hadn’t been this sick for a long time, and I finally felt strongly again that health was the No.1 important thing in life.
I thought, yesterday was so smooth that it doesn’t make sense that I can feel so awful today. Can it be that I’m one of the rare cases where my body is unsuitable for fasting? It’s only the second day and I’m already feeling this terrible, so should I break the fast? Oh no I was so determined to do at least 7 days. I don’t want to give up so easily. Should I get my coconut water out of the fridge so that I can break the fast before I can’t take it anymore? But I really want to keep on fasting! So maybe I should check up on supervised fast center near this area. If my symptom worsens, I should just go to the fast supervision facility and stay there for 10 days. But I was too weak to check up fast centers online. I sat there for 2-3 minutes, and I suddenly felt like using the bath room for the big one. I took my plastic bag with me, and I felt horrible on the toilet. It reminded me of having fever / getting really sick back home. I finally decided that there was no bowel movement, so I went back to the room.
I decided to go back to sleep. Surprisingly, the moment I lied down on my bed, I felt something was coming up to my mouth from my stomach. Fortunately I had my plastic bag with me, so I quickly grab the plastic bag just in time to vomit in it. I throw up probably two mouthful of sour liquid. It went out so rashly that it almost went into my nose. I felt much, much better after vomiting. I was not that dizzy anymore when I got off the bed. I rinsed my teeth, drank some warm water, and it was like I was almost recovered from sickness. I checked out my vomit, it was murky yellow with some tiny white stuff/bubble on the surface. It didn’t smell particularly bad. I guess the water might be the water I just drank? It must be the release of toxin in my body or it was a total clean up of my stomach. I just experienced the typical “beneficial side-effects” that I read on book!
Although I was feeling much better, I thought that I needed rest to fully recover, so I planned to read on bed. Strangely, the moment I lied down, I really wanted to sleep, so I quickly fell asleep. I had a vivid dream but couldn't remember that much. Lisa’s alarm went off twice. They woke me up but I quickly went back to sleep again. I woke up at 6:47am, feeling terrific and refreshed. I told Lisa my experience and I got up. I felt as good as in my first day of fast.
Now, the rest of my second day experience:
A very comfortable and energetic day in general, except the light headache in the afternoon. Was reading about water fast for the whole day.
Stomach grumbled in the morning, but it didn’t bother me at all. Not feeling more or less hungry than yesterday.
Had bearable headache in early afternoon, but still kept on reading from the computer screen. Finally did not want to stare at the screen anymore, so I took a nap. Napped from 1:50pm to 5:25pm, woke up in the middle because of cold feet. Felt warm and comfortable before getting up. Less but still a little bit headache after nap, headache disappeared about an hour later.
Brushed teeth after the nap, began to have weird taste in mouth.
Got up from nap because I was thirsty. I though, isn’t it nice if I could just always stay on bed? So I decided to make an insulator so that I can have warm water while on bed. Made an insulator with cotton cloths in a plastic container. 5:55pm began insulate warm water in my stainless steel bottle, 7:55pm water was drinkable / barely warm. 8:10pm tried using a glass water bottle, 10:10pm figured that glass bottle = stainless steel bottle.
I didn’t feel that sleepy and remembered reading that you don’t need that much sleep during fasting. Most importantly, I really need some water, so I jumped out of the bed at around 4:50am (my bed was slightly elevated). The moment my feet landed on the ground, I instantly felt dizzy. I suddenly remembered that doctors supervising fasts instruct their patients not to jump out of the bed or suddenly stand up. When fasters feel dizzy, they should immediately sit or lie down. So I immediately went back to bed, which relieved the symptom. Then I stepped out of the bed carefully using the chair. I could finally stand still, although I still felt a little bit dizzy.
I weighted myself before doing anything else, because I thought this was the official getting-up. 51.6, 0.3kg lower than last night and 1kg lower than last morning. I thought I would lose more weight, but it was good that I didn’t lose weight quickly. I then went to the bathroom to warm my water, brush my teeth and wash my face. I looked pale in the mirror, especially my lips. I went back to the room. My hands were shaky while pouring water into the mug. I felt terrible so I sat down at my desk. I was weak and nauseous and it felt like I was having a fever (except my temperature was normal). I wanted to read, but I couldn’t. I wanted to vomit, so I had a plastic bad ready just in case. Every move was suffering. I hadn’t been this sick for a long time, and I finally felt strongly again that health was the No.1 important thing in life.
I thought, yesterday was so smooth that it doesn’t make sense that I can feel so awful today. Can it be that I’m one of the rare cases where my body is unsuitable for fasting? It’s only the second day and I’m already feeling this terrible, so should I break the fast? Oh no I was so determined to do at least 7 days. I don’t want to give up so easily. Should I get my coconut water out of the fridge so that I can break the fast before I can’t take it anymore? But I really want to keep on fasting! So maybe I should check up on supervised fast center near this area. If my symptom worsens, I should just go to the fast supervision facility and stay there for 10 days. But I was too weak to check up fast centers online. I sat there for 2-3 minutes, and I suddenly felt like using the bath room for the big one. I took my plastic bag with me, and I felt horrible on the toilet. It reminded me of having fever / getting really sick back home. I finally decided that there was no bowel movement, so I went back to the room.
I decided to go back to sleep. Surprisingly, the moment I lied down on my bed, I felt something was coming up to my mouth from my stomach. Fortunately I had my plastic bag with me, so I quickly grab the plastic bag just in time to vomit in it. I throw up probably two mouthful of sour liquid. It went out so rashly that it almost went into my nose. I felt much, much better after vomiting. I was not that dizzy anymore when I got off the bed. I rinsed my teeth, drank some warm water, and it was like I was almost recovered from sickness. I checked out my vomit, it was murky yellow with some tiny white stuff/bubble on the surface. It didn’t smell particularly bad. I guess the water might be the water I just drank? It must be the release of toxin in my body or it was a total clean up of my stomach. I just experienced the typical “beneficial side-effects” that I read on book!
Although I was feeling much better, I thought that I needed rest to fully recover, so I planned to read on bed. Strangely, the moment I lied down, I really wanted to sleep, so I quickly fell asleep. I had a vivid dream but couldn't remember that much. Lisa’s alarm went off twice. They woke me up but I quickly went back to sleep again. I woke up at 6:47am, feeling terrific and refreshed. I told Lisa my experience and I got up. I felt as good as in my first day of fast.
Now, the rest of my second day experience:
A very comfortable and energetic day in general, except the light headache in the afternoon. Was reading about water fast for the whole day.
Stomach grumbled in the morning, but it didn’t bother me at all. Not feeling more or less hungry than yesterday.
Had bearable headache in early afternoon, but still kept on reading from the computer screen. Finally did not want to stare at the screen anymore, so I took a nap. Napped from 1:50pm to 5:25pm, woke up in the middle because of cold feet. Felt warm and comfortable before getting up. Less but still a little bit headache after nap, headache disappeared about an hour later.
Brushed teeth after the nap, began to have weird taste in mouth.
Got up from nap because I was thirsty. I though, isn’t it nice if I could just always stay on bed? So I decided to make an insulator so that I can have warm water while on bed. Made an insulator with cotton cloths in a plastic container. 5:55pm began insulate warm water in my stainless steel bottle, 7:55pm water was drinkable / barely warm. 8:10pm tried using a glass water bottle, 10:10pm figured that glass bottle = stainless steel bottle.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
1st day of water fast, rainy
First day of fast. Decided to drink pure bottled water. Had 14 1-liter Aquafina pure water in stock. Will decide whether to buy more or use filtered water from water fountain after the stock ran out. Decided not to decide on how many days to fast. Will see how it goes. Currently believe that I will at least do 7 days. Will try to continue if I feel ok on the 7th day. But will consider breaking the fast after 10 days, because I’m still new to fasting, I’m unsupervised, and the 10th day is the first day of school. Plus 10-day water fast is the standard.
Bowel movement at 6:55am.
Finished the “spring break to do list” in the morning. Now all I need to do during spring break is fasting, reading my 18 books, trying meditation, planning for the new quarter, and taking the pre-training diagnostic tests. My parents and I agreed that I will plan my parents’ US trip after the spring break. Finished two books about fasting in the rest of the day.
Napped from 3:05 to 4:20pm. Got cold feet when I woke up. I put on an extra pair of pants after I got up. Lisa and Linda felt cold too.
Felt upset and physically uncomfortable (had “qi” in stomach) when thinking about mum after the nap, because she objected my vegan diet and wanted to force me to obey her. Felt better when reading that fasting can help cure mental illness and create euphoria. Felt good again after talking to parents. Mum seemed to be not that concerned about my diet now.
Didn’t feel discomfort for the whole day. Sometimes felt hungry, but it didn't bother me at all. Didn’t feel as thirsty as my previous two one-day fasts. Only drank 2.7 liter of water. No breathe or body odor, no extra mucus. Energetic the whole day besides the nap. Mentally alert. In general, had an even easier experience than the previous two fasts.
Bowel movement at 6:55am.
Finished the “spring break to do list” in the morning. Now all I need to do during spring break is fasting, reading my 18 books, trying meditation, planning for the new quarter, and taking the pre-training diagnostic tests. My parents and I agreed that I will plan my parents’ US trip after the spring break. Finished two books about fasting in the rest of the day.
Napped from 3:05 to 4:20pm. Got cold feet when I woke up. I put on an extra pair of pants after I got up. Lisa and Linda felt cold too.
Felt upset and physically uncomfortable (had “qi” in stomach) when thinking about mum after the nap, because she objected my vegan diet and wanted to force me to obey her. Felt better when reading that fasting can help cure mental illness and create euphoria. Felt good again after talking to parents. Mum seemed to be not that concerned about my diet now.
Didn’t feel discomfort for the whole day. Sometimes felt hungry, but it didn't bother me at all. Didn’t feel as thirsty as my previous two one-day fasts. Only drank 2.7 liter of water. No breathe or body odor, no extra mucus. Energetic the whole day besides the nap. Mentally alert. In general, had an even easier experience than the previous two fasts.
Finals week
1. March 15: 3 slices of bread is about right for breakfast, and 2 slices of watermelon is about right for one snack
2. My eyes felt itchy sometimes
3. Fat makes you full. Although I wouldn’t say I overate, I definitely ate a lot / almost overate in the last two days (March 17 Thu, 18 Fri), and my weight picked up a little as a result. For some meals I ate little or no protein/starch, but I was still stuffed, because my vegetables were oily (especially broccoli, although it was extremely good). Thursday night I bought two packages of Sensible Foods Crunch Dried Snacks. They were “organic sweet corn” and “organic soy nuts”, which were essentially concentrated starches and proteins. They were so good that, even after normal dinner, I could not help finishing them both (not in one go tho). Strangely I didn’t feel bloated. Moreover, starch+protein totally violates food combination, but I didn’t fart or experience anything usual. Probably I did feel a little bit uncomfortable because I ate too much, but it was not very memorable. I can’t make many conclusions yet, but one thing I can conclude is that fat is the No.1 thing that makes you full. Vegetable with a lot of oil stuffs you fast, while a lot of starch/protein with little oil does not.
4. Probably because of stress, I got a couple of bad dreams. Not nightmares, but intensive dreams. Haven’t had bad dreams for a long time.
5. Yesterday my dad expressed his understanding for my vegan decision. He believed that happiness and freedom is very important, so he supports whatever decision I make. My mum initially said that she was still against my vegan diet even after reading my emails, but later she said she would like to give me time to study more about nutrition and hopefully make the decision of eating meat again on my own. I am grateful to their understanding.
6. This is not an accident, because I was aware of it when I ... had a little bit of white sauce (which very likely contains dairy) while biting the mushroom and black bean burgers bought from Axe & Palm. I had mushroom burgers from Axe & Palm twice before, and both time there was no sauce at all. However, this time both Lisa's black bean burger and my mushroom burger got sauce in it :( I still wanted to eat breakfast (we bought the burgers on Thursday night and saved it for breakfast on Friday), so I ate the margins of the burgers and took in a little bit sauce on the way.
2. My eyes felt itchy sometimes
3. Fat makes you full. Although I wouldn’t say I overate, I definitely ate a lot / almost overate in the last two days (March 17 Thu, 18 Fri), and my weight picked up a little as a result. For some meals I ate little or no protein/starch, but I was still stuffed, because my vegetables were oily (especially broccoli, although it was extremely good). Thursday night I bought two packages of Sensible Foods Crunch Dried Snacks. They were “organic sweet corn” and “organic soy nuts”, which were essentially concentrated starches and proteins. They were so good that, even after normal dinner, I could not help finishing them both (not in one go tho). Strangely I didn’t feel bloated. Moreover, starch+protein totally violates food combination, but I didn’t fart or experience anything usual. Probably I did feel a little bit uncomfortable because I ate too much, but it was not very memorable. I can’t make many conclusions yet, but one thing I can conclude is that fat is the No.1 thing that makes you full. Vegetable with a lot of oil stuffs you fast, while a lot of starch/protein with little oil does not.
4. Probably because of stress, I got a couple of bad dreams. Not nightmares, but intensive dreams. Haven’t had bad dreams for a long time.
5. Yesterday my dad expressed his understanding for my vegan decision. He believed that happiness and freedom is very important, so he supports whatever decision I make. My mum initially said that she was still against my vegan diet even after reading my emails, but later she said she would like to give me time to study more about nutrition and hopefully make the decision of eating meat again on my own. I am grateful to their understanding.
6. This is not an accident, because I was aware of it when I ... had a little bit of white sauce (which very likely contains dairy) while biting the mushroom and black bean burgers bought from Axe & Palm. I had mushroom burgers from Axe & Palm twice before, and both time there was no sauce at all. However, this time both Lisa's black bean burger and my mushroom burger got sauce in it :( I still wanted to eat breakfast (we bought the burgers on Thursday night and saved it for breakfast on Friday), so I ate the margins of the burgers and took in a little bit sauce on the way.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Extremely tired Brussels sprout with dairy
Last night I went to bed at around 11:30pm and took a while to fall asleep. Surprisingly I got up as early as 6am this morning. I went to bed pretty late in the last two days but still got up relatively early in the morning, so I haven’t got enough sleep these days. What’s more incredible is that, 6am today is actually 5am before the adjustment of day-light saving time two days ago. I was pretty energetic in the morning and watched lectures online for the whole day (also went out to send my OPT application), but now around 7pm, I’m extremely tired. I haven’t felt this tired for a long time. So I plan to go to bed at 9pm tonight.
Lunch I discovered that the Brussels sprout had dairy in it after I had already got one plate of Brussels sprout. Dumping it does not save cows of pain or reduce energy consumption, so I ate it anyways. I could taste a little bit of dairy, but the taste was very minor. I didn’t feel good after having that plate of Brussels sprout, and I didn’t feel like eating Brussels sprout when I saw it at dinner. Be very careful with vegan/vegetarian labels next time!
Dinner, again, like yesterday, I didn’t think I ate too much but I felt full. Actually after having half a plate of food I thought that was enough, but I still wanted some Zucchini and mushrooms, so I took some more. I shouldn’t have done that. Maybe I still think I need more food for dinner while in fact my stomach has already been smaller.
Lunch I discovered that the Brussels sprout had dairy in it after I had already got one plate of Brussels sprout. Dumping it does not save cows of pain or reduce energy consumption, so I ate it anyways. I could taste a little bit of dairy, but the taste was very minor. I didn’t feel good after having that plate of Brussels sprout, and I didn’t feel like eating Brussels sprout when I saw it at dinner. Be very careful with vegan/vegetarian labels next time!
Dinner, again, like yesterday, I didn’t think I ate too much but I felt full. Actually after having half a plate of food I thought that was enough, but I still wanted some Zucchini and mushrooms, so I took some more. I shouldn’t have done that. Maybe I still think I need more food for dinner while in fact my stomach has already been smaller.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Dead week
Tuesday, March 8
I overate for dinner: had a lot of lentil puree, among other stuff like squash and mushrooms. It made me feel sleepy the whole night, gain 1 kg compared to last night, and fart a lot. My stomach was obviously very flexible – it suddenly became HUGE. However, I still felt better this time than last time when I had the two big full plates of Thai vegetable curry. I concluded that too much starch/protein is better than too much fat.
I canceled the bet with Lisa, because I decided to fast for the next day to recover my stomach, and this violates the eat-every-meal rule of the bet. I was sure I would win the bet, but I hated the restrictions that the bet set on me. I wanted freedom, so I canceled the bet.
Wednesday, March 9
I was woken up by alarm that morning – the first time for a while. It showed that I needed more sleep due to overeating. I fasted for one day, and it was easier than the first time I fasted (although the first time was easy too). This time I was not as thirsty and hungry as last time. It was probably because 1) from morning to 3pm I was totally focusing on the humbio final paper due that afternoon, 2) last time I starting fasting from lunch, but this time I started fasting from dinner, so maybe it was less intense of a fast this time, or 3) the second time is just easier than the first time.
I was also more energetic: I didn't feel sleepy in the 3:15-4:30pm class at all! I broke the fast with two apples at probably around 5:15pm. At around 6:10pm I had some green salad and broccoli. At around 7pm I had three slices of watermelon. Wow that’s a lot of break-fast compared to just two apples last time!
Thursday, March 10
It was awful that I overate again. I had slightly less than normal amount for dinner, then I when into the Flomo kitchen to talk to the staff there for a while. After a short while, I felt like some bread, so I went downstairs to get some. I saw one girl pass by, eating Oroweat 100% whole wheat English muffin. I was curious so I checked the muffin out. It looked healthy, so I had one slice (half of one English muffin). It was soooo delicious, and it was instantly ranked as my favorite bread. To compare with the normal Oroweat 100% whole wheat bread, I ate a piece of the normal bread too (the crust part that I love). The normal one still tasted good, but the English muffin tasted softer and a little bit oilier, like cakes. So I had another English muffin (composed of two slices). Then I regretted, because I overate again. But this time it was much better than the previous two overeating that made me feel imperative to fast.
Friday, March 11
Although I felt ok when I went to bed last night, I felt very full this morning. But I still had one apple around 9am. At around 10am I had the big mushroom burger from Axe & Palm (I took it back home the previous day). I didn’t have time for lunch because I had a final paper due at 1:15pm. After submitting the paper, I ate 1.5 English muffin and a piece of leftover mushroom on the lawn. I had a small dinner. My stomach does not feel great that day. Overeat-fast-overeat in three days hurt my stomach, and my diet today was also irregular. I should protect my stomach more. Take good care of it.
When I was talking to my parents at night, my parents forced/begged me to eat meat. I was sad and extremely frustrated that I needed to give up my belief just to make my parents happy, so I wrote a long email to them, hoping that they understand why I chose to become a vegan. As a result, I went to bed at around 2am. It was the first time that I went to bed after midnight since the Viennese Ball on February 11.
Saturday, March 12
I naturally woke up at around 7am. I intentionally canceled my alarm last night, expecting to sleep more this morning. But I woke up early by myself as usual, although not as early as 5:40am. Not getting enough sleep, my complexion did not look good today.
During lunch, I had a talk with the manager friend at Wilbur Dining. She told me about how she loved her children by letting them make their own decisions. She’s a wise woman who practices meditation. She said this was a good chance for me to educate my parents, so I decided not to compromise my belief for my parents. They need to understand what I think, who I truly am, what’s most important to me, and what makes me happy. So at round 4pm I started to write a letter to them. I sent the email out at around 11pm and went to bed at around 11:40pm.
I didn’t feel energetic today, although definitely didn’t feel sleepy either, until after I sent out the email to my parents. I yawned after shower. Wow I suddenly realized that I hadn’t yawned for a looong time!
My stomach still felt weird sometimes, but much better than yesterday. Today I practiced good diet and my stomach is recovering.
This morning I discovered that “Food for Life Wheat & Gluten Free Brown Rice Bread” is also soft and oily, so Food for Life’s Brown Rice Bread trumped Oroweat English Muffin as my favorite bread.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Today I got up at 7am again. It’s interesting that that’s roughly 1.5 hours later than 5:40am. I just learned the 90-minute sleep cycle last week and it looks like it applies here! I used to believe in a smaller sleep cycle of 40 minutes (my dad told me this and it works).
Lisa just got up around 10am. I always know I went to bed at around the same time but got up way earlier than her every day. However, today is the first time I consciously calculated: 10-7 = 3 hours! Before going vegetarian, we used to have the same demand for sleep. Am I really saving 3 hours every day nowadays? I’ll try keeping track of our sleep time next week.
Wait … that why! I just realized that because of the day-light saving time, we just lost an hour today. So if today were still yesterday, Lisa got up around 9am and I slept only 2 hours less than her. (The time I got up, 7am, was shown on my alarm, which did not automatically adjust for day-light saving time)
This morning, I had one slice of Udi’s Gluten Free Whole Grain Bread, one slice of Food for Life Brown Rice Bread, one slice of Ezekiel, and one slice of Udi’s again. They are all very good, with totally different tastes. I almost wanted to rank Udi’s Gluten Free Whole Grain as my new favorite, but I just discovered that it has egg whites in it. Egg’s only a minor ingredient here, so I think it’s ok to eat Udi’s once in a while, but I don’t want to make it my favorite. I compared nutrition facts and figured that the best is still definitely Ezekiel. Food for Life Brown Rice, Udi’s and Oroweat Whole Grain all leg behind. I think I won’t rank among breads, but I do think bread has become one of my favorite foods. I’ll use Ezekiel as my staple, and eat other breads once in a while.
Lunch I had half a plate of green salad and half a plate of squash and roots. I didn’t think that was too much squash and roots, but apparently that was. My stomach didn’t feel good after the lunch, although overall I didn’t eat that much. I recalled that actually I never felt very comfortable after eating a lot of squash or roots. Probably they are just difficult for my stomach to digest, so in the future I should only take very small amount of such food each time. I finished lunch at 12:45pm and had pineapple at around 2:50pm. My stomach was noticeably uncomfortable at around 3:50pm, so I went to bed at around 4pm.
Dinner I had green salad, boy choy, broccoli, and three slices of breads: Ezekiel, Oroweat whole wheat, and Oroweat whole wheat English muffin. Oroweat English muffin didn’t taste THAT great to me anymore. I actually enjoyed the Oroweat whole wheat the most today. It’s weird that, for dinner again, I felt full after meal even I don’t think that I had that much. There are a few possible reasons for that: 1) I took a 1.5 hour nap right before dinner, so I didn’t feel like eating before dinner. 2) I suspect that boy choy in the US contains too much fiber or is too huge and thus it fills me up easily. 3) I guess that I should not eat both Ezekiel and normal bread at the same time, because Ezekiel is a complete protein and leaner on carb. Mixing Ezekiel and normal bread is a bit like a starch-protein combination. 4) Three slices of bread is just about right for breakfast, but for dinner, since you also consume so much fiber from other sources, three slices of bread may be too much? About two hours after dinner I also farted a little bit. I guess farting is directly correlated with how stuffed you are after each meal. You may also fart if you violate food combination, e.g. having starch and protein at the same meal, but I’m not sure on this point.
I overate for dinner: had a lot of lentil puree, among other stuff like squash and mushrooms. It made me feel sleepy the whole night, gain 1 kg compared to last night, and fart a lot. My stomach was obviously very flexible – it suddenly became HUGE. However, I still felt better this time than last time when I had the two big full plates of Thai vegetable curry. I concluded that too much starch/protein is better than too much fat.
I canceled the bet with Lisa, because I decided to fast for the next day to recover my stomach, and this violates the eat-every-meal rule of the bet. I was sure I would win the bet, but I hated the restrictions that the bet set on me. I wanted freedom, so I canceled the bet.
Wednesday, March 9
I was woken up by alarm that morning – the first time for a while. It showed that I needed more sleep due to overeating. I fasted for one day, and it was easier than the first time I fasted (although the first time was easy too). This time I was not as thirsty and hungry as last time. It was probably because 1) from morning to 3pm I was totally focusing on the humbio final paper due that afternoon, 2) last time I starting fasting from lunch, but this time I started fasting from dinner, so maybe it was less intense of a fast this time, or 3) the second time is just easier than the first time.
I was also more energetic: I didn't feel sleepy in the 3:15-4:30pm class at all! I broke the fast with two apples at probably around 5:15pm. At around 6:10pm I had some green salad and broccoli. At around 7pm I had three slices of watermelon. Wow that’s a lot of break-fast compared to just two apples last time!
Thursday, March 10
It was awful that I overate again. I had slightly less than normal amount for dinner, then I when into the Flomo kitchen to talk to the staff there for a while. After a short while, I felt like some bread, so I went downstairs to get some. I saw one girl pass by, eating Oroweat 100% whole wheat English muffin. I was curious so I checked the muffin out. It looked healthy, so I had one slice (half of one English muffin). It was soooo delicious, and it was instantly ranked as my favorite bread. To compare with the normal Oroweat 100% whole wheat bread, I ate a piece of the normal bread too (the crust part that I love). The normal one still tasted good, but the English muffin tasted softer and a little bit oilier, like cakes. So I had another English muffin (composed of two slices). Then I regretted, because I overate again. But this time it was much better than the previous two overeating that made me feel imperative to fast.
Friday, March 11
Although I felt ok when I went to bed last night, I felt very full this morning. But I still had one apple around 9am. At around 10am I had the big mushroom burger from Axe & Palm (I took it back home the previous day). I didn’t have time for lunch because I had a final paper due at 1:15pm. After submitting the paper, I ate 1.5 English muffin and a piece of leftover mushroom on the lawn. I had a small dinner. My stomach does not feel great that day. Overeat-fast-overeat in three days hurt my stomach, and my diet today was also irregular. I should protect my stomach more. Take good care of it.
When I was talking to my parents at night, my parents forced/begged me to eat meat. I was sad and extremely frustrated that I needed to give up my belief just to make my parents happy, so I wrote a long email to them, hoping that they understand why I chose to become a vegan. As a result, I went to bed at around 2am. It was the first time that I went to bed after midnight since the Viennese Ball on February 11.
Saturday, March 12
I naturally woke up at around 7am. I intentionally canceled my alarm last night, expecting to sleep more this morning. But I woke up early by myself as usual, although not as early as 5:40am. Not getting enough sleep, my complexion did not look good today.
During lunch, I had a talk with the manager friend at Wilbur Dining. She told me about how she loved her children by letting them make their own decisions. She’s a wise woman who practices meditation. She said this was a good chance for me to educate my parents, so I decided not to compromise my belief for my parents. They need to understand what I think, who I truly am, what’s most important to me, and what makes me happy. So at round 4pm I started to write a letter to them. I sent the email out at around 11pm and went to bed at around 11:40pm.
I didn’t feel energetic today, although definitely didn’t feel sleepy either, until after I sent out the email to my parents. I yawned after shower. Wow I suddenly realized that I hadn’t yawned for a looong time!
My stomach still felt weird sometimes, but much better than yesterday. Today I practiced good diet and my stomach is recovering.
This morning I discovered that “Food for Life Wheat & Gluten Free Brown Rice Bread” is also soft and oily, so Food for Life’s Brown Rice Bread trumped Oroweat English Muffin as my favorite bread.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Today I got up at 7am again. It’s interesting that that’s roughly 1.5 hours later than 5:40am. I just learned the 90-minute sleep cycle last week and it looks like it applies here! I used to believe in a smaller sleep cycle of 40 minutes (my dad told me this and it works).
Lisa just got up around 10am. I always know I went to bed at around the same time but got up way earlier than her every day. However, today is the first time I consciously calculated: 10-7 = 3 hours! Before going vegetarian, we used to have the same demand for sleep. Am I really saving 3 hours every day nowadays? I’ll try keeping track of our sleep time next week.
Wait … that why! I just realized that because of the day-light saving time, we just lost an hour today. So if today were still yesterday, Lisa got up around 9am and I slept only 2 hours less than her. (The time I got up, 7am, was shown on my alarm, which did not automatically adjust for day-light saving time)
This morning, I had one slice of Udi’s Gluten Free Whole Grain Bread, one slice of Food for Life Brown Rice Bread, one slice of Ezekiel, and one slice of Udi’s again. They are all very good, with totally different tastes. I almost wanted to rank Udi’s Gluten Free Whole Grain as my new favorite, but I just discovered that it has egg whites in it. Egg’s only a minor ingredient here, so I think it’s ok to eat Udi’s once in a while, but I don’t want to make it my favorite. I compared nutrition facts and figured that the best is still definitely Ezekiel. Food for Life Brown Rice, Udi’s and Oroweat Whole Grain all leg behind. I think I won’t rank among breads, but I do think bread has become one of my favorite foods. I’ll use Ezekiel as my staple, and eat other breads once in a while.
Lunch I had half a plate of green salad and half a plate of squash and roots. I didn’t think that was too much squash and roots, but apparently that was. My stomach didn’t feel good after the lunch, although overall I didn’t eat that much. I recalled that actually I never felt very comfortable after eating a lot of squash or roots. Probably they are just difficult for my stomach to digest, so in the future I should only take very small amount of such food each time. I finished lunch at 12:45pm and had pineapple at around 2:50pm. My stomach was noticeably uncomfortable at around 3:50pm, so I went to bed at around 4pm.
Dinner I had green salad, boy choy, broccoli, and three slices of breads: Ezekiel, Oroweat whole wheat, and Oroweat whole wheat English muffin. Oroweat English muffin didn’t taste THAT great to me anymore. I actually enjoyed the Oroweat whole wheat the most today. It’s weird that, for dinner again, I felt full after meal even I don’t think that I had that much. There are a few possible reasons for that: 1) I took a 1.5 hour nap right before dinner, so I didn’t feel like eating before dinner. 2) I suspect that boy choy in the US contains too much fiber or is too huge and thus it fills me up easily. 3) I guess that I should not eat both Ezekiel and normal bread at the same time, because Ezekiel is a complete protein and leaner on carb. Mixing Ezekiel and normal bread is a bit like a starch-protein combination. 4) Three slices of bread is just about right for breakfast, but for dinner, since you also consume so much fiber from other sources, three slices of bread may be too much? About two hours after dinner I also farted a little bit. I guess farting is directly correlated with how stuffed you are after each meal. You may also fart if you violate food combination, e.g. having starch and protein at the same meal, but I’m not sure on this point.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
The day of 18+1 books
Starting from yesterday I began to feel my bones in the butt area while sitting on the chair. I've always had a big butt which is a nice "cushion" to carry around, but is my cushion shrinking along with my weight these days? It's not comfortable at all and I want my cushion back.
These days I haven't overate, but I'm definitely eating more than enough in each meal. I think it's because 1) the plates at Wilbur is bigger than those at Flomo, and 2) my need for food decreases, but mentally I still feel that I should eat the amount I used to have. Nowadays I sleep 7 hours per day, and I'm energetic most of the time. But today I felt tired roughly two hours after lunch and dinner. I took a nap this afternoon in the library, and now I feel a little bit tired again! Not overeating is not enough. In order to increase your energy level, you should not eat more than you need. Also, don't do something just because you used to do it.
Today I ordered 18 books regarding meditation, zen, fasting, and vegan. Plus one more book Monkey Business to foresee my future.
These days I haven't overate, but I'm definitely eating more than enough in each meal. I think it's because 1) the plates at Wilbur is bigger than those at Flomo, and 2) my need for food decreases, but mentally I still feel that I should eat the amount I used to have. Nowadays I sleep 7 hours per day, and I'm energetic most of the time. But today I felt tired roughly two hours after lunch and dinner. I took a nap this afternoon in the library, and now I feel a little bit tired again! Not overeating is not enough. In order to increase your energy level, you should not eat more than you need. Also, don't do something just because you used to do it.
Today I ordered 18 books regarding meditation, zen, fasting, and vegan. Plus one more book Monkey Business to foresee my future.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Inflammation and curry
Yesterday, the corner of my month got inflamed, or “on fire” according to Chinese medicine, and today it began to bother me. There are a few causes that I suspect: 1) I normally eat “cold” fruit every day, but during period I’m not eating any “cold” fruits, so the “fire” caught on; 2) it’s easier to get weird symptoms like inflammation during period; 3) I eat too much curry. It’s actually not much in absolute terms, but it’s more than enough and my body has become sensitive enough to react to it; 4) I need more vegetables. These days I feel like green vegetables more, while before I always feel like grains and beans more. I still somehow told myself I need the amount of grains and beans that I used to have for each meal, but actually my body might have reached a more natural stage of wanting 80% vegetables and fruits and 20% grains and legumes.
About curry now. Before I ate the epic “two big full plates of Thai vegetable curry (TBFPOTVC)”, I thought curry had become my favorite food. But ever since the epic TBFPOTVC, I don’t really enjoy curry that much anymore. These days, I got curries simply because I told myself I like them, not because I really feel like eating them. I used to always get a little bit more than normal amount of curry, but now even I still got the same amount of curry, my stomach began to feel uncomfortable and it also affected my appetite for the next meal. Curry is too oily for my stomach now. I think I’ll take a break with curry and not eat it until next quarter.
About curry now. Before I ate the epic “two big full plates of Thai vegetable curry (TBFPOTVC)”, I thought curry had become my favorite food. But ever since the epic TBFPOTVC, I don’t really enjoy curry that much anymore. These days, I got curries simply because I told myself I like them, not because I really feel like eating them. I used to always get a little bit more than normal amount of curry, but now even I still got the same amount of curry, my stomach began to feel uncomfortable and it also affected my appetite for the next meal. Curry is too oily for my stomach now. I think I’ll take a break with curry and not eat it until next quarter.
Monday, February 28, 2011
The day after breaking the fast
Last night I weighted 53.7 kg before bed. I was shocked because I thought my weight would recover much faster. Remember that when I was technically still in the fruit fast last morning, I weighted 53.3 kg on an empty stomach? I only recovered 0.4 kg for the whole day? Actually I’m more puzzled by my weight today. This morning, on an empty stomach, I weighted 53.3 kg again – can’t believe there is no weight improvement at all; after lunch, when I was 99% full, I still weighted 53.9 kg, same as yesterday after breakfast; tonight I still weighted 53.9 kg, even when I was still feeling full from dinner. It's hard to believe that my weight simply cannot recover from a one-day fast. Maybe it takes time, or maybe the low weight is not caused by the one-day experimental fast at all. I just created a weight chart to record my weight. Although I’m not concerned about my weight at all, I’m curious to see how weight correlates with different diet patterns.
Today is also my first day of menstrual cycle. It’s very punctual: right 30 days after last one, and I’m not suffering from any pain, except when I was sitting outside Tressider doing reading this afternoon: it was a little chilly, so my stomach was a little bit uncomfortable. I’m glad my menstrual cycle has been punctual and painless ever since I became a vegetarian. I’m putting menstrual cycle here because I think the one day fast, my weight, and my period might somehow be related, but I just don’t know how they are related yet.
I overate for dinner today. I just took one bowl of green salad and one plate of food, so I didn’t think it was too much. Obviously I underestimated how much the plate at Wilbur is bigger than that at Flomo. When there was only some tofu on my plate, I felt I should stop eating, but I ate the tofu anyway. I should have listened to my body. It’s impossible for me to know how big the plate is for every one of my meals, but my body always knows when to stop. So, just would like to stress to myself: listen to your body and stop when it says stop.
After the dinner, I felt there was something in my throat that was blocking the way. It reminded me of the dream I had last night, where I ate something, which just blocked there. In the dream I didn’t know whether I should try throwing up or swallowing it, and it was extremely uncomfortable. Now in real life, I felt the same about the stuff in my throat. My intuition told me it was because I ate more than enough tofu and root at the same time. Tofu is high protein while root is starchy. It looks like for dinner, I should be stricter about food combination and eat as little as possible protein, starch, and fat (PSF). I feel bad with a full stomach on bed. In contrast, I was feeling good when I was a little bit hungry before dinner today. According to what I’ve read so far, or maybe it’s just my own philosophy, after fasting, your body tries to follow a natural diet. The natural proportion of PSF is about only 20%, so now I am more sensitive to >20% PSF and tend towards a 20%-PSF diet. That’s why my body did not react favorably to >20% PSF both for lunch and dinner today. Lunch I didn’t stuff myself, but I definitely didn’t feel great afterwards; I ate a little bit too much millet. Again, what you should listen is not your habit, but your body. In the shower, I did some acupressure and the little something in my throat was gone. Interestingly, although I always know that acupressure always works, I still always wonder at how easily and fast it works every time it works. But this time it could also be that the hot shower accelerated my blood circulation and cleared my throat.
Lastly, I had a major discovery while I was recording my weight about an hour ago. The discovery is, breakfast is called “breakfast” because it breaks fast. Sleep is actually a forced fast. So people had fast even before they invented the word “breakfast”. Isn’t it amazing that a common little word that you have taken for granted for over 20 years can one day suddenly give you such bountiful insight and imagination?
Today is also my first day of menstrual cycle. It’s very punctual: right 30 days after last one, and I’m not suffering from any pain, except when I was sitting outside Tressider doing reading this afternoon: it was a little chilly, so my stomach was a little bit uncomfortable. I’m glad my menstrual cycle has been punctual and painless ever since I became a vegetarian. I’m putting menstrual cycle here because I think the one day fast, my weight, and my period might somehow be related, but I just don’t know how they are related yet.
I overate for dinner today. I just took one bowl of green salad and one plate of food, so I didn’t think it was too much. Obviously I underestimated how much the plate at Wilbur is bigger than that at Flomo. When there was only some tofu on my plate, I felt I should stop eating, but I ate the tofu anyway. I should have listened to my body. It’s impossible for me to know how big the plate is for every one of my meals, but my body always knows when to stop. So, just would like to stress to myself: listen to your body and stop when it says stop.
After the dinner, I felt there was something in my throat that was blocking the way. It reminded me of the dream I had last night, where I ate something, which just blocked there. In the dream I didn’t know whether I should try throwing up or swallowing it, and it was extremely uncomfortable. Now in real life, I felt the same about the stuff in my throat. My intuition told me it was because I ate more than enough tofu and root at the same time. Tofu is high protein while root is starchy. It looks like for dinner, I should be stricter about food combination and eat as little as possible protein, starch, and fat (PSF). I feel bad with a full stomach on bed. In contrast, I was feeling good when I was a little bit hungry before dinner today. According to what I’ve read so far, or maybe it’s just my own philosophy, after fasting, your body tries to follow a natural diet. The natural proportion of PSF is about only 20%, so now I am more sensitive to >20% PSF and tend towards a 20%-PSF diet. That’s why my body did not react favorably to >20% PSF both for lunch and dinner today. Lunch I didn’t stuff myself, but I definitely didn’t feel great afterwards; I ate a little bit too much millet. Again, what you should listen is not your habit, but your body. In the shower, I did some acupressure and the little something in my throat was gone. Interestingly, although I always know that acupressure always works, I still always wonder at how easily and fast it works every time it works. But this time it could also be that the hot shower accelerated my blood circulation and cleared my throat.
Lastly, I had a major discovery while I was recording my weight about an hour ago. The discovery is, breakfast is called “breakfast” because it breaks fast. Sleep is actually a forced fast. So people had fast even before they invented the word “breakfast”. Isn’t it amazing that a common little word that you have taken for granted for over 20 years can one day suddenly give you such bountiful insight and imagination?
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Breaking the fast
At 10am, I ate three slices of Ezekiel bread, breaking the fruit fast. Actually I had always planned to wait until brunch to have a bowl of hot oatmeal, which I think is better for digestion than bread, but I finally chose to listen to my body: I was imagining how satisfying it would be to have some Ezekiel bread, but oatmeal didn't turn me on at all. Sure enough, the bread meal was very satisfying.
At 12:40pm I had some green salad and 3/4 plate of cooked vegetables as a light lunch. I rinsed the Zucchini with hot water, because I thought it was greasy. Today I really chewed all my food till they breakdown, which I think made food taste better. I almost never ate sweet peppers, but today I ate the sweet peppers that went with the Zucchini, and it was the first time I think sweet peppers taste great. I also discovered that summer squash (Zucchini) does taste like squash!
Before the bread, I felt a little dizzy when I stood up; after the bread, the symptom lessened; and after the vegetables, the dizziness was gone.
Boring lectures have always had a hypnotizing effect on me, so I went to take a nap at 1:40pm. I planned to limit it to only 20 minutes but ended up sleeping until 3:30pm. Then I had some honeydew, 15 minutes later some pineapple, and went to the presentation group at 4pm. In total, I still slept 7 hours today, and I have been energetic the whole day, so it looks like 7 hours per day is my standard amount of sleep these days.
I'm happy that tonight I resisted the temptation to get another plate of curry. Actually I only had a bowl of green salad and half plate of curry today (plus Flomo's plate is smaller than Wilbur's). If I had taken more curry, the tragedy of two plates of curry before the fast might occur again, although in a smaller scale. I'm about to go to bed now and my stomach is feeling terrific. Actually I'm not that excited about curry today, because now whenever I saw / thought about curry, I thought about the two full big plates of Thai vegetable curry, which immediately turned me off a little. Maybe it's also because after the fast, my body does not feel like fatty food.
At 12:40pm I had some green salad and 3/4 plate of cooked vegetables as a light lunch. I rinsed the Zucchini with hot water, because I thought it was greasy. Today I really chewed all my food till they breakdown, which I think made food taste better. I almost never ate sweet peppers, but today I ate the sweet peppers that went with the Zucchini, and it was the first time I think sweet peppers taste great. I also discovered that summer squash (Zucchini) does taste like squash!
Before the bread, I felt a little dizzy when I stood up; after the bread, the symptom lessened; and after the vegetables, the dizziness was gone.
Boring lectures have always had a hypnotizing effect on me, so I went to take a nap at 1:40pm. I planned to limit it to only 20 minutes but ended up sleeping until 3:30pm. Then I had some honeydew, 15 minutes later some pineapple, and went to the presentation group at 4pm. In total, I still slept 7 hours today, and I have been energetic the whole day, so it looks like 7 hours per day is my standard amount of sleep these days.
I'm happy that tonight I resisted the temptation to get another plate of curry. Actually I only had a bowl of green salad and half plate of curry today (plus Flomo's plate is smaller than Wilbur's). If I had taken more curry, the tragedy of two plates of curry before the fast might occur again, although in a smaller scale. I'm about to go to bed now and my stomach is feeling terrific. Actually I'm not that excited about curry today, because now whenever I saw / thought about curry, I thought about the two full big plates of Thai vegetable curry, which immediately turned me off a little. Maybe it's also because after the fast, my body does not feel like fatty food.
More on fasting
I went to bed at midnight last night and quickly fell asleep. The two apples around 6pm last night was excellent in keeping me satisfied for 6 hours, although occasionally I thought I should feel hungry now, so I did feel a little hungry, but I believe my stomach was actually in a good shape. I woke up at 4am this morning, thinking it was too early, so I went back to sleep. I woke up at 5am again, and 10 minutes later I was totally awake, so I got up. Eating less does reduce the amount of sleep you need. I was feeling very hungry when I was about to get off the bed, but after brushing teeth and washing face, my stomach was comfortable. While in bathroom, I finally decided to break the fruit fasting by eating light today. The reason is that I have a lot of work to do and catch up and I need to make sure that I have enough energy to work efficiently. Also, I’m expecting my menstrual cycle in two days, so I don’t want to disturb my body too much. As long as I eat light, mostly raw food, and eat only the amount of food that I need, I’ll be in a good shape to enter my 10 day water fast 3 weeks later.
When I took off my cloths to weight myself before eating or drinking anything, I noticed that my stomach had flattened out. Haven’t had that for a long time. I weighted 53.3 kg, 2 kg lower than before the Thai curry. But according to my readings yesterday, I’ll be back to where I was after resuming my normal diet. Sure enough, right after I released solid waste, roughly an hour after drinking a lot of water and eating two apples as breakfast, my weight increased to 53.9 kg. I’m still curious to see to what extent I will recover though. Some side notes about the water and apples I just mentioned: 1) Water: starting from yesterday, I began to drink boiled (as opposed to just warmed) tap water to make sure my water is absolutely safe. Clean water is important in adjusting your body. 2) Apples: right after having the two apples, I might feel a little bit full, but my stomach soon felt great. I’m feeling great too, because the sun is out, I opened the window, and everything is alive!
Since I was talking about weight, I suddenly remembered that I need to mention that 20% of the reason why I decided not to fast before spring break is that I might win the bet with my roommate without any effort. Just think it interesting to see her doing the funny/awful thing as a result of losing the bet :) Another 80% of the reason is academic. I just checked that next next week I’ll have a project due and final exam, both for the hardest class I’m taking this quarter, so I won’t fast next weekend. The next next next week is final’s week, which I expect to be miserable considering I’m taking 6 classes this quarter, so I don’t want to fast next next weekend either. In conclusion, I won’t fast until the end of this quarter, which coincides with the end of the bet. The bet has good timing: it starts a month and a half before I went vegetarian, unknowingly helping me transition from a voracious carnivore diet to a vegetarian diet; the bet ends right when I want it to end so that I can take another major challenge in my life.
Yesterday while sitting at the lunch table (i.e. I didn’t have lunch) with my friends off campus, I preached a lot about being vegan (I haven’t preached for a long time). That was a more tolerant group than I expected, since 4 out of 5 of them seemed to enjoy listening to my sermon. But sometimes they just could not believe the numbers I listed and I didn’t have a PhD title to be credible enough to convince them. This is frustrating, as well as getting into an argument with friends. I think I’ll just stop preaching anything non-mainstream until I have acquired solid knowledge and extensive experience with what I would like to preach. If I’m not credible enough, even if people don’t disagree or argue with you, they will at most think what you advocate entertaining and won’t actually adopt them, so there is no use preaching and making your friend think you are a freak, although I do think I have always been a freak.
Starting from now I’ve decided to fast reading about fasting and other health related stuff. It’s too addictive and has stolen an enormous amount of time from my work this quarter. I would say since the weekend when I went vegetarian, I have spent almost all my weekends on studying health related stuff online. It has become my biggest hobby now. But it is also important that I do decent work in school, so it’s time for me to prioritize work over hobby, especially in the last three weeks of the quarter, when the time investment yields the highest return over the entire quarter. Most importantly, since I will need a lot of rest during my 10-day water fasting over the spring break, I will do almost nothing but reading about fasting and meditation, practicing meditation, plan my parents’ trip to the US, and plan my last quarter of undergraduate career, so I will have enough time indulging myself with my hobbies. If you don’t have the self-discipline to fast your hobby for just three weeks, why do you think you can successfully do a 10-day water fast?
When I took off my cloths to weight myself before eating or drinking anything, I noticed that my stomach had flattened out. Haven’t had that for a long time. I weighted 53.3 kg, 2 kg lower than before the Thai curry. But according to my readings yesterday, I’ll be back to where I was after resuming my normal diet. Sure enough, right after I released solid waste, roughly an hour after drinking a lot of water and eating two apples as breakfast, my weight increased to 53.9 kg. I’m still curious to see to what extent I will recover though. Some side notes about the water and apples I just mentioned: 1) Water: starting from yesterday, I began to drink boiled (as opposed to just warmed) tap water to make sure my water is absolutely safe. Clean water is important in adjusting your body. 2) Apples: right after having the two apples, I might feel a little bit full, but my stomach soon felt great. I’m feeling great too, because the sun is out, I opened the window, and everything is alive!
Since I was talking about weight, I suddenly remembered that I need to mention that 20% of the reason why I decided not to fast before spring break is that I might win the bet with my roommate without any effort. Just think it interesting to see her doing the funny/awful thing as a result of losing the bet :) Another 80% of the reason is academic. I just checked that next next week I’ll have a project due and final exam, both for the hardest class I’m taking this quarter, so I won’t fast next weekend. The next next next week is final’s week, which I expect to be miserable considering I’m taking 6 classes this quarter, so I don’t want to fast next next weekend either. In conclusion, I won’t fast until the end of this quarter, which coincides with the end of the bet. The bet has good timing: it starts a month and a half before I went vegetarian, unknowingly helping me transition from a voracious carnivore diet to a vegetarian diet; the bet ends right when I want it to end so that I can take another major challenge in my life.
Yesterday while sitting at the lunch table (i.e. I didn’t have lunch) with my friends off campus, I preached a lot about being vegan (I haven’t preached for a long time). That was a more tolerant group than I expected, since 4 out of 5 of them seemed to enjoy listening to my sermon. But sometimes they just could not believe the numbers I listed and I didn’t have a PhD title to be credible enough to convince them. This is frustrating, as well as getting into an argument with friends. I think I’ll just stop preaching anything non-mainstream until I have acquired solid knowledge and extensive experience with what I would like to preach. If I’m not credible enough, even if people don’t disagree or argue with you, they will at most think what you advocate entertaining and won’t actually adopt them, so there is no use preaching and making your friend think you are a freak, although I do think I have always been a freak.
Starting from now I’ve decided to fast reading about fasting and other health related stuff. It’s too addictive and has stolen an enormous amount of time from my work this quarter. I would say since the weekend when I went vegetarian, I have spent almost all my weekends on studying health related stuff online. It has become my biggest hobby now. But it is also important that I do decent work in school, so it’s time for me to prioritize work over hobby, especially in the last three weeks of the quarter, when the time investment yields the highest return over the entire quarter. Most importantly, since I will need a lot of rest during my 10-day water fasting over the spring break, I will do almost nothing but reading about fasting and meditation, practicing meditation, plan my parents’ trip to the US, and plan my last quarter of undergraduate career, so I will have enough time indulging myself with my hobbies. If you don’t have the self-discipline to fast your hobby for just three weeks, why do you think you can successfully do a 10-day water fast?
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Trying fasting
I had two big full plates of extremely delicious Thai vegetable curry for lunch yesterday, and I felt bloated and didn’t eat anything for the rest of the day. I certainly still felt stuffed when I went to bed yesterday, and when I got up this morning my stomach was still not emptied. I would like to give my stomach a rest, so I decided not to eat anything today. Naturally I began to wonder if fasting was healthy, so I searched online. This led me to a whole day’s reading about fasting (except from 1 to 5pm when I hung out with friends). What I was surprised and happy to find was that fasting seems a lot like practicing vegan. They both make you healthier and more spiritual. They are both radical changes to my life and require a leap of faith. Two articles into reading about fasting, I had already decided to take the challenge and practice fasting to explore myself.
Yesterday I ended my curry feast at around 1:30pm and hadn’t eaten anything besides warm water until 5:55pm today. It was my first fasting experience, and it was not painful at all. I didn’t suffer from unbearable hunger or any unusual symptoms, except that 1) My breath and body odor were a little bit unpleasant this evening, 2) I drank a LOT of water today. Today is probably my highest-water-consumption day of my life so far. I was not really thirsty, but I just WANTED to drink this much, partially because it made me feel more filled. I ate two apples on 5:55pm, because I read that fasting for one or two days does not get you to the extremely beneficial deep cleaning stage yet, but it breaks down your muscles. Although it looks like I water-fasted for 28 hours this time, I don’t think the 28 hours fully counts, because even this morning I still felt a little bit something in my stomach. So I thought eating apples at dinner time today could stop my muscle breakdown right in time and also satisfy my stomach when it routinely secreted digestive juice. After further reading, I now tend to believe that fasting for 24 hours does not really hurt muscles, but I’m not 100% sure. Need more research. But at least I’m now ok with fasting for one or two days without being too concerned about losing muscles.
Longer fasting is definitely disproportionally more effective than shorter fasting, so I’ve decided to do a 10-day water fasting during spring break from March 18 to March 28. There will be only 10 days between my graduation on June 12 and the start of my full-time job on June 22, and I’ll work in banking for two years, so I see this spring break the only chance I can do a longer fasting in the near future. The trick is that extended water fasting is better not conducted during periods of stress and heavy workload, so I won’t do it during school year or on the job. I’ve been vegetarian for more than one month and vegan for more than three weeks, so I’ve already started the right preparation for longer fasting. However, since water fasting is an intensive experience for newbies, I think I should do more preparation in the next three weeks by 1) eat mostly raw foods, 2) eat little greasy food, and 3) NEVER feel full. I’m pretty confident that I will easily obey these three fasting prep rules, because I feel a strong belief and commitment in fasting, just like how I believed in my commitment to vegetarian and vegan when I first started them.
Two things are still uncertain. First, since finals are approaching, I don’t know whether I should gradually adapt to fasting by doing one to three days of water/juice/fruit fasting every week in the next three weeks. Second, since today all I had were two apples, I’m actually still on a fruit fasting. So if I continue to eat only fruit tomorrow, I’ll continue the fasting I started yesterday, which will give me a more intense first fasting experience. With regard to these two uncertainties, I think I’ll just listen to my body when I need to make a decision.
Finally, I’ve been not using facial cleansers (except during shower times) since I made the decision of not using them 5 days ago. My skin didn’t change much. Maybe it became a little bit worse, but it could be the skin’s adaptation to the change or the symptom before menstrual cycle. Anyhow, today I’ve decided to go back to using facial cleansers once a day, because when your body actively releases toxins, you want to clean the pores to assist the removal of toxins; I believe in the stage of transitioning to a healthier diet, which is what I’ve been doing recently and will do for the next few weeks, the body releases toxins at a faster rate than usual.
Yesterday I ended my curry feast at around 1:30pm and hadn’t eaten anything besides warm water until 5:55pm today. It was my first fasting experience, and it was not painful at all. I didn’t suffer from unbearable hunger or any unusual symptoms, except that 1) My breath and body odor were a little bit unpleasant this evening, 2) I drank a LOT of water today. Today is probably my highest-water-consumption day of my life so far. I was not really thirsty, but I just WANTED to drink this much, partially because it made me feel more filled. I ate two apples on 5:55pm, because I read that fasting for one or two days does not get you to the extremely beneficial deep cleaning stage yet, but it breaks down your muscles. Although it looks like I water-fasted for 28 hours this time, I don’t think the 28 hours fully counts, because even this morning I still felt a little bit something in my stomach. So I thought eating apples at dinner time today could stop my muscle breakdown right in time and also satisfy my stomach when it routinely secreted digestive juice. After further reading, I now tend to believe that fasting for 24 hours does not really hurt muscles, but I’m not 100% sure. Need more research. But at least I’m now ok with fasting for one or two days without being too concerned about losing muscles.
Longer fasting is definitely disproportionally more effective than shorter fasting, so I’ve decided to do a 10-day water fasting during spring break from March 18 to March 28. There will be only 10 days between my graduation on June 12 and the start of my full-time job on June 22, and I’ll work in banking for two years, so I see this spring break the only chance I can do a longer fasting in the near future. The trick is that extended water fasting is better not conducted during periods of stress and heavy workload, so I won’t do it during school year or on the job. I’ve been vegetarian for more than one month and vegan for more than three weeks, so I’ve already started the right preparation for longer fasting. However, since water fasting is an intensive experience for newbies, I think I should do more preparation in the next three weeks by 1) eat mostly raw foods, 2) eat little greasy food, and 3) NEVER feel full. I’m pretty confident that I will easily obey these three fasting prep rules, because I feel a strong belief and commitment in fasting, just like how I believed in my commitment to vegetarian and vegan when I first started them.
Two things are still uncertain. First, since finals are approaching, I don’t know whether I should gradually adapt to fasting by doing one to three days of water/juice/fruit fasting every week in the next three weeks. Second, since today all I had were two apples, I’m actually still on a fruit fasting. So if I continue to eat only fruit tomorrow, I’ll continue the fasting I started yesterday, which will give me a more intense first fasting experience. With regard to these two uncertainties, I think I’ll just listen to my body when I need to make a decision.
Finally, I’ve been not using facial cleansers (except during shower times) since I made the decision of not using them 5 days ago. My skin didn’t change much. Maybe it became a little bit worse, but it could be the skin’s adaptation to the change or the symptom before menstrual cycle. Anyhow, today I’ve decided to go back to using facial cleansers once a day, because when your body actively releases toxins, you want to clean the pores to assist the removal of toxins; I believe in the stage of transitioning to a healthier diet, which is what I’ve been doing recently and will do for the next few weeks, the body releases toxins at a faster rate than usual.
Environmental reasons
I've always had a hard time trying to clearly explain to people the environmental reasons for being vegetarian, although I think sustainability is a vitally important reason to eat an all-plant diet. So I spent 3 hours this morning compiling some convincing hard numbers from online. Although I tried to use reliable sources and take into account different numbers from different sources, there might still be mistakes. I just hope that this list can give people a rough understanding of the environmental reasons to go vegan.
• 50% of water in the US
• 70% of grains in the US, and 40% of grains in the world
• 80% of land in the US, and 30% of land in the world
are used to raise animals for food (including land used for grazing and land used to grow feed crops)
Loss occurred from grain to meat
• It takes 16 pounds of grain to produce 1 pound of beef. That's 94% more land and pesticides
• By feeding grains to livestock, we lose 90% of the protein, 96% of the calories, 99% of the carbohydrates, and 100% of the fiber
• If Americans would reduce meat consumption by just 10%, enough grain would be saved to feed the 60 million people who die of hunger each year
Water
• 2500 gallons produce 1 pound of meat, while 25 gallons produce 1 pound of wheat
• It takes 300 gallons of water daily to feed a vegan, 1200 gallons to feed a vegetarian, and 4200 gallons to feed a meat eater. Thus by becoming vegan, one person could save 3900 gallons of water each day for their entire life
• You save more water by not eating 1 pound of beef than by not showering for a whole year
Land
• One acre of land can produce 356 pounds of protein from soybeans, 265 pounds from rice, but only 45 from meat, and 20 from beef
• On an ongoing basis, it takes 3.25 acres of land to produce one meat eater’s food, but only 1/6 of an acre to produce a vegan’s food. So only 5% of the land currently devoted to food production would be used to produce food if we all ate an all-plant diet. That’s also 5% of fertilizers and pesticides
Other
• Global warming: the meat industry produces more greenhouse gases than all of the transportation industry combined
• Water pollution: livestock produces about 130 times the feces of the entire U.S. population, and since none is treated or recycled, they pollute our groundwater and river more than all other industrial sources combined
• Energy consumption: producing 1 calorie of protein for beef uses 54 calories of fossil fuel, while grains only 3 calories of fossil fuel
• Deforestation: Every 8 seconds an acre of trees in the US is cleared to produce cropland for meat
• Topsoil loss: 85% of topsoil loss in the US is the result of livestock production, with each pound of steak resulting in 35 pounds of eroded US topsoil
• Extinction of plant species: livestock grazing is the number one reason that plant species in the US go extinct
• 50% of water in the US
• 70% of grains in the US, and 40% of grains in the world
• 80% of land in the US, and 30% of land in the world
are used to raise animals for food (including land used for grazing and land used to grow feed crops)
Loss occurred from grain to meat
• It takes 16 pounds of grain to produce 1 pound of beef. That's 94% more land and pesticides
• By feeding grains to livestock, we lose 90% of the protein, 96% of the calories, 99% of the carbohydrates, and 100% of the fiber
• If Americans would reduce meat consumption by just 10%, enough grain would be saved to feed the 60 million people who die of hunger each year
Water
• 2500 gallons produce 1 pound of meat, while 25 gallons produce 1 pound of wheat
• It takes 300 gallons of water daily to feed a vegan, 1200 gallons to feed a vegetarian, and 4200 gallons to feed a meat eater. Thus by becoming vegan, one person could save 3900 gallons of water each day for their entire life
• You save more water by not eating 1 pound of beef than by not showering for a whole year
Land
• One acre of land can produce 356 pounds of protein from soybeans, 265 pounds from rice, but only 45 from meat, and 20 from beef
• On an ongoing basis, it takes 3.25 acres of land to produce one meat eater’s food, but only 1/6 of an acre to produce a vegan’s food. So only 5% of the land currently devoted to food production would be used to produce food if we all ate an all-plant diet. That’s also 5% of fertilizers and pesticides
Other
• Global warming: the meat industry produces more greenhouse gases than all of the transportation industry combined
• Water pollution: livestock produces about 130 times the feces of the entire U.S. population, and since none is treated or recycled, they pollute our groundwater and river more than all other industrial sources combined
• Energy consumption: producing 1 calorie of protein for beef uses 54 calories of fossil fuel, while grains only 3 calories of fossil fuel
• Deforestation: Every 8 seconds an acre of trees in the US is cleared to produce cropland for meat
• Topsoil loss: 85% of topsoil loss in the US is the result of livestock production, with each pound of steak resulting in 35 pounds of eroded US topsoil
• Extinction of plant species: livestock grazing is the number one reason that plant species in the US go extinct
Friday, February 25, 2011
Rules and Resolutions 20110225
I realized that when a brand new RR is out, like RR 20110221, it should be experimented for several days, just like codes should be tested. In the past four days, as I tried to obey RR 20110221, I kept on discovering more about myself, learning new knowledge, and figuring out what I like and dislike about this RR. So today I upgraded RR 20110221 to RR 20110225. The new, updated RR is more flexible and addresses my biggest problem in the past few days – overeating – especially today, when I had two big full plates of Thai vegetable curry for lunch. It’s 7pm now, I didn’t have dinner, and I’m still feeling full.
How I address this overeating problem is neither by scaring myself with the horrible consequences of overeating, nor by setting strict rules to discipline myself. Instead, I made some semi poems (actually not poems at all) to tell myself why eating less is consistent with my ideology. I also figured there is no point assigning myself titles like 80% Eater or Food Combinator. The best way to successfully adopt new changes is to make myself truly believe in the changes. It should be that I sincerely want to do them, not that I am somehow forced by rules or titles to do them. This is actually how I could easily become a vegetarian and then vegan. I’m happy to share the “poems” here:
以 ……之心进食
慈悲和善
惜福感恩
简朴平淡
从容不迫
少食（食无求饱）
清血养胃
心智清明
无欲无求
回归自然
How I address this overeating problem is neither by scaring myself with the horrible consequences of overeating, nor by setting strict rules to discipline myself. Instead, I made some semi poems (actually not poems at all) to tell myself why eating less is consistent with my ideology. I also figured there is no point assigning myself titles like 80% Eater or Food Combinator. The best way to successfully adopt new changes is to make myself truly believe in the changes. It should be that I sincerely want to do them, not that I am somehow forced by rules or titles to do them. This is actually how I could easily become a vegetarian and then vegan. I’m happy to share the “poems” here:
以 ……之心进食
慈悲和善
惜福感恩
简朴平淡
从容不迫
少食（食无求饱）
清血养胃
心智清明
无欲无求
回归自然
Monday, February 21, 2011
Rules and Resolutions 20110221
I created a new Rules and Resolutions document 20110221, effective tomorrow.
Trying not to use facial cleansers
Strictly speaking, only use facial cleansers when I wash my hair.
Accidents
Here is a list of all the accidents I had.
Before going vegan, all intentional:
1. Had a tuna sandwich in the Integrative Medicine class.
1. Had a few tastes of the side vegetables in chicken curry.
2. Had a few pieces of curry catfish.
After going vegan, all unintentional:
1. Had a good amount of jelly fish at the Little Fat Sheep. I always thought that the jelly fish dish was vegetable.
2. Had two tablespoons of cauliflower clan soup. It was labeled "no dairy, no eggs", so I thought it was vegan. Btw, I still liked the taste of sea food.
3. Had a slice of Oroweat's new "100% Whole Wheat Light Bread" and discovered later that it has nonfat milk in its ingredients. Just because the "100% Whole Wheat" is vegan doesn't mean its light version is also vegan.
4. Had a delicious chocolate cake at the Department of Economics Student Faculty Dinner last Tuesday. I checked online and found that chocolate cakes are usually made with butter and eggs. I asked the waitresses whether the cake was vegan and they said yes, but I should have used my own judgment.
Despite all these accidents, I kinda enjoy checking whether a food is vegan or not...
Before going vegan, all intentional:
1. Had a tuna sandwich in the Integrative Medicine class.
1. Had a few tastes of the side vegetables in chicken curry.
2. Had a few pieces of curry catfish.
After going vegan, all unintentional:
1. Had a good amount of jelly fish at the Little Fat Sheep. I always thought that the jelly fish dish was vegetable.
2. Had two tablespoons of cauliflower clan soup. It was labeled "no dairy, no eggs", so I thought it was vegan. Btw, I still liked the taste of sea food.
3. Had a slice of Oroweat's new "100% Whole Wheat Light Bread" and discovered later that it has nonfat milk in its ingredients. Just because the "100% Whole Wheat" is vegan doesn't mean its light version is also vegan.
4. Had a delicious chocolate cake at the Department of Economics Student Faculty Dinner last Tuesday. I checked online and found that chocolate cakes are usually made with butter and eggs. I asked the waitresses whether the cake was vegan and they said yes, but I should have used my own judgment.
Despite all these accidents, I kinda enjoy checking whether a food is vegan or not...
Sunday, February 20, 2011
The weekend of room decoration
Dizziness
From probably Thursday to yesterday, I felt dizzy when standing up from the floor (I sit on the floor to admire/arrange pictures). It was the first time I showed such symptom after I went vegetarian/vegan. I suspect it’s because 1) not only did I overeat in general, but I also ate too much starch and protein, which are too heavy for my stomach, and 2) iron. So this weekend I studied iron, along with zinc, another mineral that vegans usually do not take enough. Reason 1) may sound weird, but that’s my intuition. Starting from yesterday I began to consciously follow the 80% eater rule and eat less starch and proteins, and it does seem to work against dizziness. I admit that I didn’t follow the 80% rule well in the past few days.
Fruit
Does a vegan diet enhance your ability to listen to your body, or it makes you less adaptable? Recently I began to notice the effect of some fruit on my body. Probably even before going vegetarian, I had already discovered that pears were incredibly good at making me feel full. Even when I’m very hungry, one pear can keep me full for more than an hour. After eating a pear today, I felt very cold for a few minutes. Watermelons stuff me quickly and make me cold too. Last Tuesday, I felt very uncomfortable after eating a banana in class (MS&E 270, Markstrat party). It occurred to me that these fruits were all “of cold property” according to Chinese medicine. So I studied fruit today. Sure enough, cold fruit makes you feel cold and slows down your digestion, which makes you feel full.
Eating
I didn’t eat much today and it felt good. Couple of thoughts: 1) I don’t really need to eat as much as I usually eat. Moderate intake of food is enough; 2) water fills me up too; 3) feeling hungry is not necessarily a sign of actual hunger. After waiting for a while the hungry feeling disappears. If the feeling of hunger lingers for probably more than 15 minutes, then it’s real hunger.
Nuts
During my visit to Palentir this Friday afternoon, I had two handful of mixed nuts, and my stomach definitely didn't have a good experience.
Flax Seed Oil
I've only used my new flax seed oil once after I bought it two weeks ago, but starting from today I'll use it pretty frequently.
Sleep
Regarding sleep, it’s been both good and not so good. I was decorating my room for three days including today. I loved doing it so much that I didn’t want to go to bed or didn’t even realize that it was already past 11:30pm. So for the past two nights, I slept from midnight to 7:10am. I woke up at 7:10am in the past two days naturally and pretty precisely, and I didn’t feel sleepy at any point of the day (maybe it’s because I was loving decorating my room and studying fruit, vegetables, iron, zinc … …). So the not-so-good part is that I went to bed too late, but the good part is that I figured my natural amount of sleep now is 7 hours every day. I believe if I go to bed at around 10:30pm-11pm, I can sleep even less.
I’ll make a few new resolutions and edit my vegan documents tonight and tomorrow.
From probably Thursday to yesterday, I felt dizzy when standing up from the floor (I sit on the floor to admire/arrange pictures). It was the first time I showed such symptom after I went vegetarian/vegan. I suspect it’s because 1) not only did I overeat in general, but I also ate too much starch and protein, which are too heavy for my stomach, and 2) iron. So this weekend I studied iron, along with zinc, another mineral that vegans usually do not take enough. Reason 1) may sound weird, but that’s my intuition. Starting from yesterday I began to consciously follow the 80% eater rule and eat less starch and proteins, and it does seem to work against dizziness. I admit that I didn’t follow the 80% rule well in the past few days.
Fruit
Does a vegan diet enhance your ability to listen to your body, or it makes you less adaptable? Recently I began to notice the effect of some fruit on my body. Probably even before going vegetarian, I had already discovered that pears were incredibly good at making me feel full. Even when I’m very hungry, one pear can keep me full for more than an hour. After eating a pear today, I felt very cold for a few minutes. Watermelons stuff me quickly and make me cold too. Last Tuesday, I felt very uncomfortable after eating a banana in class (MS&E 270, Markstrat party). It occurred to me that these fruits were all “of cold property” according to Chinese medicine. So I studied fruit today. Sure enough, cold fruit makes you feel cold and slows down your digestion, which makes you feel full.
Eating
I didn’t eat much today and it felt good. Couple of thoughts: 1) I don’t really need to eat as much as I usually eat. Moderate intake of food is enough; 2) water fills me up too; 3) feeling hungry is not necessarily a sign of actual hunger. After waiting for a while the hungry feeling disappears. If the feeling of hunger lingers for probably more than 15 minutes, then it’s real hunger.
Nuts
During my visit to Palentir this Friday afternoon, I had two handful of mixed nuts, and my stomach definitely didn't have a good experience.
Flax Seed Oil
I've only used my new flax seed oil once after I bought it two weeks ago, but starting from today I'll use it pretty frequently.
Sleep
Regarding sleep, it’s been both good and not so good. I was decorating my room for three days including today. I loved doing it so much that I didn’t want to go to bed or didn’t even realize that it was already past 11:30pm. So for the past two nights, I slept from midnight to 7:10am. I woke up at 7:10am in the past two days naturally and pretty precisely, and I didn’t feel sleepy at any point of the day (maybe it’s because I was loving decorating my room and studying fruit, vegetables, iron, zinc … …). So the not-so-good part is that I went to bed too late, but the good part is that I figured my natural amount of sleep now is 7 hours every day. I believe if I go to bed at around 10:30pm-11pm, I can sleep even less.
I’ll make a few new resolutions and edit my vegan documents tonight and tomorrow.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Trying 80% Eater
I invented the phrase "80% Eater", which means someone who only fills the stomach to 80% of its capacity. It's the "80/20 Rule" applied to eating :) This also means 1) definitely no eating when feeling satisfied, either at or in between the meals, and 2) moderate (as opposed to over) intake of snacks in between meals.
Recently I've been eating a lot and having an inertia of eating even when I'm already full. I believe this is the main reason why I'm not feeling particularly great these days. I also blame my increasing need for sleep to overeating.
I think it's great to name yourself after what you're seriously committed to. I think one of the reasons why a vegan diet is so easy for me to stick to is that I obtained a title "vegan". Since I AM a vegan, I can't be who I am not, so I always remember my "identity" and stick to the vegan rule. I've been seriously trying to avoid overeating many times, but I always ended up forgetting or disregarding it. Now I'm officially an "80% Eater", and let's see how this works out.
* It turned out that I didn't follow the 80% eater rule well in the couple of days right after this post.
Recently I've been eating a lot and having an inertia of eating even when I'm already full. I believe this is the main reason why I'm not feeling particularly great these days. I also blame my increasing need for sleep to overeating.
I think it's great to name yourself after what you're seriously committed to. I think one of the reasons why a vegan diet is so easy for me to stick to is that I obtained a title "vegan". Since I AM a vegan, I can't be who I am not, so I always remember my "identity" and stick to the vegan rule. I've been seriously trying to avoid overeating many times, but I always ended up forgetting or disregarding it. Now I'm officially an "80% Eater", and let's see how this works out.
* It turned out that I didn't follow the 80% eater rule well in the couple of days right after this post.
Got up this morning at around 4:50
Last night after spending Valentine’s Day with Lisa, four of us were hanging out in our room. I put music on with my speaker hooked up with my laptop. While Latika’s Theme from Slumdog Millionaire was on, I put my computer to sleep without closing the music or tuning the speaker off or unhooking the speaker. Anyways, everything was asleep, and I went to bed at around 11pm.
This morning at around 4:40am, the music mysteriously turned on by itself and played for about 30 seconds. Latika’s Theme was beautiful in the peaceful, dark morning. When I checked the alarm clock, it was 4:43am. I was fully awake and I had a lot of work to do, so I got up. My computer was still asleep; Lisa was still asleep; everything was still asleep except me.
* I ended up falling asleep in my 8:15am class for 40 minutes. I left the class halfway through and took a nice rest on the coach in the GSB lounge for 20 minutes. Clearly 11pm-4:50am 5 hours and 50 minutes of sleep is not enough.
* I fell asleep again in the Bendor Room in the afternoon. Not getting enough sleep at night is awful.
This morning at around 4:40am, the music mysteriously turned on by itself and played for about 30 seconds. Latika’s Theme was beautiful in the peaceful, dark morning. When I checked the alarm clock, it was 4:43am. I was fully awake and I had a lot of work to do, so I got up. My computer was still asleep; Lisa was still asleep; everything was still asleep except me.
* I ended up falling asleep in my 8:15am class for 40 minutes. I left the class halfway through and took a nice rest on the coach in the GSB lounge for 20 minutes. Clearly 11pm-4:50am 5 hours and 50 minutes of sleep is not enough.
* I fell asleep again in the Bendor Room in the afternoon. Not getting enough sleep at night is awful.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Starting Vege Joy
I started this blog Vege Joy on Valentine’s Day 2011, because it’s an easy day to remember. Going vegetarian and then vegan has been an exhilarating self-exploration experience to me, so I would like to keep a diary of the joy of my Vege Journey here on Vege Joy. I intend this blog to be more of a record of what I did and what happened than an educational website about vegetarianism. In fact, what I like most about Vege Joy is that it is not only about the joy of my Vege Journey. It is also about the joy of my life. By life I mean life, unrelated to study and work. I find reflecting on life, designing my life, experimenting a new way of life, and making a change to life a lot of joy.
I created this post on the day I started this blog, but I didn’t write any content. Today, Monday, February 21, 2011, Presidents’ Day, one week after I started Vege Joy and one month after the start of my Vege Journey (btw, I totally didn’t realize that today is such an important day until I was writing the previous sentence), I’m coming back to record what happened in the first three weeks of this exciting journey.
Friday, January 21, 2011 Dinner with Mr. Fauver
I met Mr. Fauver through a class offered by the School of Medicine. I had dinner with him on this Friday night at Wilbur Dining. It was a life-changing dinner. Everything suddenly got connected, I realized that I was actually very spiritual in nature, and I became more peaceful and care-free.
I decided to learn about and start practicing meditation, so the next day I began to read about meditation online. Somehow I learned that a vegetarian diet helps people become more spiritual. I was curious and intrigued, so I began to read about vegetarianism. Then I learned how horribly the food industry treats animals and how a plant-based diet helps protect the environment. A feeling of compassion and love for nature made me want to go vegetarian. After further research, I concluded that a vegetarian diet was even healthier than an omnivore diet. At that time, I knew that I had become a vegetarian.
Sunday, January 23, 2011 Becoming a Vegetarian
I officially became a vegetarian.
I used to be a gluttonous carnivore. I LOVED sea food, dairy and eggs. All-you-care-to-eat dining halls in college were evil accomplices, which made more than 90% of the food on my plates meat. Fortunately I was not fat, so I kept on eating like that, until last year when a friend pointed out to me that not eating vegetables might be the reason why I had acne. This is so duh, but how come I didn’t realize it earlier?! So I began to eat more vegetables, but still not enough. It was not until December 8 last year, when I bet my roommate that I could lose 6 kg in one quarter by neither starving myself nor exercising, that I began to eat probably more vegetables than meat at most meals. Three weeks later, I fell in love with vegetables when eating a big plate of salad in Las Vegas. From then on, I began to be able to crave for vegetables. Coming back to school, I would sometimes even eat solely vegetables for meal out of my free will (not because of the bet at all).
Therefore, going vegetarian was a smooth transition to me. It was so natural that, except for one day when I really wanted the curry catfish at Wilbur Dining, I have never craved for meat at all since I became a vegetarian. Why did I really want the catfish? Well, a few days after going vegetarian, I saw chicken curry at Wilbur Dining and really wanted some curry. So I took some vegetables and curry sauce from the chicken curry. It turned out to be the worst vegetable ever. It had the taste of animal flesh, which instantaneously turned me off. I was surprised to discover that I began to dislike the taste of meat. However, I could not imagine that I would ever dislike the taste of fish, so two days later, when I saw the curry catfish, I decided to try it out to see if I still liked fish. Sure enough, I was still in love with fish. Even after finishing the one piece of curry catfish, I still could not stop thinking about it. So I took another two pieces, telling myself it was the last fish I would ever eat. And so far I was right.
Being a vegetarian definitely made me more sensitive to tastes, not only the tastes of animals, but also those of vegetables. I used to think all vegetables were equally plain tasting, but now I can taste each vegetable’s unique flavor. I was pretty sure that, after 21 years of eating, I had tasted almost all tastes out there, but during the first week of being vegetarian, I suddenly discovered an explosion of new naturally fantastic tastes of vegetables. It was quite a thrilling experience. It was the first time in my life that I loved every single meal I had.
Better taste is not the only unexpected experience I got from a vegetarian diet. Roughly one week after going vegetarian, I also experienced boost of energy, less sleep, and better skin. There’s a 20 degree hill leading to my dorm. I used to hate the hill and I always walked my bike every time I had to climb up the hill. However, one day, I could suddenly bike up the hill without much effort. I also easily acquired the ability to naturally wake up early in the morning (6-7am) and stay energetic all day. I used to sleep more than 9 hours every day, but now I almost never sleep more than 8 hours a day. I didn’t have acne when I went vegetarian, so I didn’t get to witness the direct effect of a vegetarian diet on acne. However, in general, a vegetarian diet is good for skin. Except the week of February 7-11, when I had breakout because of midterm stress, I haven’t had any acne on my face since going vegetarian.
Now move on to the bet I had with my roommate. I entered “safe zone” on the morning of January 27, 4 days after I became a vegetarian, and it was a huge relief. Safe zone means that as long as I hit the upper bound of the safe zone at one point, I could never lose the bet any more, but if I want to win the bet, I have to hit the lower bound by losing another 2 kg. I hated the bet, so hitting the safe zone was like the end of the bet to me. I could finally break the chain and eat freely now (although under the restriction of vegetarian). I didn’t want to become thinner, I didn’t expect to lose more weight, and I didn’t think about losing weight at all, but to my surprise, I lost 1 kg one month into the vegetarian diet. I believe that it’s not losing weight per se. Instead, I’m just getting closer to my natural state of being.
I also became happier and more peaceful. However, it’s hard to separate the effect of a vegetarian diet from other factors. This quarter is definitely much less stressful than my previous quarter, when I was doing recruiting. I also go out more this quarter. Last quarter, three of the four classes that I took had videos online, so I was mostly staying in my room preparing for recruiting. By contrast, this quarter, I began to cram a master’s program into my four years of undergrad study. Plus I am also auditing another three classes. Therefore, I have a lot of classes to attend and I bike around on campus a lot. But one thing is certain: eating only vegetables makes me feel more close to nature and my true self.
Thursday, February 3, 2011 Becoming a Vegan
I didn’t mention earlier that when I first went vegetarian, I decided that it didn’t have to be very strict. In fact, I broke the vegetarian rule twice when I was a vegetarian. First time was in the Integrative Medicine class, which offered students sandwiches for lunch. There was no vegetarian sandwich that day, and I didn’t want to starve myself, so I ate a tuna sandwich. The second time was the catfish incident described earlier. My philosophy was that, as long as I whole heartedly wanted to be a vegetarian, it didn’t matter if I broke the rule in extraneous circumstances. I didn’t like being too intentional and pedantic. I liked being natural and easy-going. I wanted to practice vegetarian out of my free will, not rules. I even briefly considered getting a small amount of fish back to my diet, because of its omega-3 fatty acid (not because I missed fish).
Then how did I suddenly become a strict vegan? First, I learned that cows and chickens are also treated horribly even when they are raised not to be eaten, but to produce milk and eggs. Second, the idea of going completely vegan made me feel more natural and spiritual. Third, being a vegetarian had been a mind-blowing experience, so I was confident to take a step further and discover more about myself. Note February 3, 2011 is the first day of the Chinese Lunar New Year. It was certainly a good start. It’s interesting that I turned from a carnivore to herbivore as the Chinese lunar year turned from Tiger to Rabbit.
Sunday, February 6, 2011 Becoming a Food Combinator
I bumped into the Food Combination (FC) theory while studying digestion time of different foods. FC was something completely new while making complete sense to me. In short, FC refers to the combination of foods which are compatible with each other in terms of digestive chemistry. It is a basic component of optimal nutrition because it allows the body to digest and utilize the nutrients in our foods to their full extent. With gazillions of rules, FC first looked extremely complicated, which discouraged me from studying it. But I gradually began to understand the whole theory and finally mastered all the rules.
It suddenly made sense why sometimes my stomach felt weird after I went vegetarian. It was because I ate too much delicious grain (starch) and yummy legume (protein) at the same meal, while according to FC, starches and proteins should not be taken at the same meal. I had a good amount of knowledge about healthy living/eating and I found FC a very sense-making theory, so I started to follow FC alongside a vegan diet. In the spirit of the post I wrote on February 15, 2011, I now call myself a Food Combinator. When first following FC, I messed up the combination rules quite frequently and I felt bad. But now I’m pretty familiar with all the rules and I feel good about my digestion. One proof that better digestion is probably not my wishful thinking is that since I went FC (and vegan at almost the same time), I have almost never had those farts with bad odor anymore. As we know, the amount you fart is one of the best indicators of how well you are digesting your food. Farts that produce bad odor is a sign of toxin formation occurring inside your gut from rotting of incompletely digested food.
I created this post on the day I started this blog, but I didn’t write any content. Today, Monday, February 21, 2011, Presidents’ Day, one week after I started Vege Joy and one month after the start of my Vege Journey (btw, I totally didn’t realize that today is such an important day until I was writing the previous sentence), I’m coming back to record what happened in the first three weeks of this exciting journey.
Friday, January 21, 2011 Dinner with Mr. Fauver
I met Mr. Fauver through a class offered by the School of Medicine. I had dinner with him on this Friday night at Wilbur Dining. It was a life-changing dinner. Everything suddenly got connected, I realized that I was actually very spiritual in nature, and I became more peaceful and care-free.
I decided to learn about and start practicing meditation, so the next day I began to read about meditation online. Somehow I learned that a vegetarian diet helps people become more spiritual. I was curious and intrigued, so I began to read about vegetarianism. Then I learned how horribly the food industry treats animals and how a plant-based diet helps protect the environment. A feeling of compassion and love for nature made me want to go vegetarian. After further research, I concluded that a vegetarian diet was even healthier than an omnivore diet. At that time, I knew that I had become a vegetarian.
Sunday, January 23, 2011 Becoming a Vegetarian
I officially became a vegetarian.
I used to be a gluttonous carnivore. I LOVED sea food, dairy and eggs. All-you-care-to-eat dining halls in college were evil accomplices, which made more than 90% of the food on my plates meat. Fortunately I was not fat, so I kept on eating like that, until last year when a friend pointed out to me that not eating vegetables might be the reason why I had acne. This is so duh, but how come I didn’t realize it earlier?! So I began to eat more vegetables, but still not enough. It was not until December 8 last year, when I bet my roommate that I could lose 6 kg in one quarter by neither starving myself nor exercising, that I began to eat probably more vegetables than meat at most meals. Three weeks later, I fell in love with vegetables when eating a big plate of salad in Las Vegas. From then on, I began to be able to crave for vegetables. Coming back to school, I would sometimes even eat solely vegetables for meal out of my free will (not because of the bet at all).
Therefore, going vegetarian was a smooth transition to me. It was so natural that, except for one day when I really wanted the curry catfish at Wilbur Dining, I have never craved for meat at all since I became a vegetarian. Why did I really want the catfish? Well, a few days after going vegetarian, I saw chicken curry at Wilbur Dining and really wanted some curry. So I took some vegetables and curry sauce from the chicken curry. It turned out to be the worst vegetable ever. It had the taste of animal flesh, which instantaneously turned me off. I was surprised to discover that I began to dislike the taste of meat. However, I could not imagine that I would ever dislike the taste of fish, so two days later, when I saw the curry catfish, I decided to try it out to see if I still liked fish. Sure enough, I was still in love with fish. Even after finishing the one piece of curry catfish, I still could not stop thinking about it. So I took another two pieces, telling myself it was the last fish I would ever eat. And so far I was right.
Being a vegetarian definitely made me more sensitive to tastes, not only the tastes of animals, but also those of vegetables. I used to think all vegetables were equally plain tasting, but now I can taste each vegetable’s unique flavor. I was pretty sure that, after 21 years of eating, I had tasted almost all tastes out there, but during the first week of being vegetarian, I suddenly discovered an explosion of new naturally fantastic tastes of vegetables. It was quite a thrilling experience. It was the first time in my life that I loved every single meal I had.
Better taste is not the only unexpected experience I got from a vegetarian diet. Roughly one week after going vegetarian, I also experienced boost of energy, less sleep, and better skin. There’s a 20 degree hill leading to my dorm. I used to hate the hill and I always walked my bike every time I had to climb up the hill. However, one day, I could suddenly bike up the hill without much effort. I also easily acquired the ability to naturally wake up early in the morning (6-7am) and stay energetic all day. I used to sleep more than 9 hours every day, but now I almost never sleep more than 8 hours a day. I didn’t have acne when I went vegetarian, so I didn’t get to witness the direct effect of a vegetarian diet on acne. However, in general, a vegetarian diet is good for skin. Except the week of February 7-11, when I had breakout because of midterm stress, I haven’t had any acne on my face since going vegetarian.
Now move on to the bet I had with my roommate. I entered “safe zone” on the morning of January 27, 4 days after I became a vegetarian, and it was a huge relief. Safe zone means that as long as I hit the upper bound of the safe zone at one point, I could never lose the bet any more, but if I want to win the bet, I have to hit the lower bound by losing another 2 kg. I hated the bet, so hitting the safe zone was like the end of the bet to me. I could finally break the chain and eat freely now (although under the restriction of vegetarian). I didn’t want to become thinner, I didn’t expect to lose more weight, and I didn’t think about losing weight at all, but to my surprise, I lost 1 kg one month into the vegetarian diet. I believe that it’s not losing weight per se. Instead, I’m just getting closer to my natural state of being.
I also became happier and more peaceful. However, it’s hard to separate the effect of a vegetarian diet from other factors. This quarter is definitely much less stressful than my previous quarter, when I was doing recruiting. I also go out more this quarter. Last quarter, three of the four classes that I took had videos online, so I was mostly staying in my room preparing for recruiting. By contrast, this quarter, I began to cram a master’s program into my four years of undergrad study. Plus I am also auditing another three classes. Therefore, I have a lot of classes to attend and I bike around on campus a lot. But one thing is certain: eating only vegetables makes me feel more close to nature and my true self.
Thursday, February 3, 2011 Becoming a Vegan
I didn’t mention earlier that when I first went vegetarian, I decided that it didn’t have to be very strict. In fact, I broke the vegetarian rule twice when I was a vegetarian. First time was in the Integrative Medicine class, which offered students sandwiches for lunch. There was no vegetarian sandwich that day, and I didn’t want to starve myself, so I ate a tuna sandwich. The second time was the catfish incident described earlier. My philosophy was that, as long as I whole heartedly wanted to be a vegetarian, it didn’t matter if I broke the rule in extraneous circumstances. I didn’t like being too intentional and pedantic. I liked being natural and easy-going. I wanted to practice vegetarian out of my free will, not rules. I even briefly considered getting a small amount of fish back to my diet, because of its omega-3 fatty acid (not because I missed fish).
Then how did I suddenly become a strict vegan? First, I learned that cows and chickens are also treated horribly even when they are raised not to be eaten, but to produce milk and eggs. Second, the idea of going completely vegan made me feel more natural and spiritual. Third, being a vegetarian had been a mind-blowing experience, so I was confident to take a step further and discover more about myself. Note February 3, 2011 is the first day of the Chinese Lunar New Year. It was certainly a good start. It’s interesting that I turned from a carnivore to herbivore as the Chinese lunar year turned from Tiger to Rabbit.
Sunday, February 6, 2011 Becoming a Food Combinator
I bumped into the Food Combination (FC) theory while studying digestion time of different foods. FC was something completely new while making complete sense to me. In short, FC refers to the combination of foods which are compatible with each other in terms of digestive chemistry. It is a basic component of optimal nutrition because it allows the body to digest and utilize the nutrients in our foods to their full extent. With gazillions of rules, FC first looked extremely complicated, which discouraged me from studying it. But I gradually began to understand the whole theory and finally mastered all the rules.
It suddenly made sense why sometimes my stomach felt weird after I went vegetarian. It was because I ate too much delicious grain (starch) and yummy legume (protein) at the same meal, while according to FC, starches and proteins should not be taken at the same meal. I had a good amount of knowledge about healthy living/eating and I found FC a very sense-making theory, so I started to follow FC alongside a vegan diet. In the spirit of the post I wrote on February 15, 2011, I now call myself a Food Combinator. When first following FC, I messed up the combination rules quite frequently and I felt bad. But now I’m pretty familiar with all the rules and I feel good about my digestion. One proof that better digestion is probably not my wishful thinking is that since I went FC (and vegan at almost the same time), I have almost never had those farts with bad odor anymore. As we know, the amount you fart is one of the best indicators of how well you are digesting your food. Farts that produce bad odor is a sign of toxin formation occurring inside your gut from rotting of incompletely digested food.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)